"Happy Saturday!"
Today, I have been feeling anxious. Today, I do not want to feel anxious! Today, I am anxious! There are a lot of things going on in my life right now that I truly have no control over...it makes me feel anxious! There are somethings I can change and other things I can not...this makes me feel anxious! I am anxious!
There is no word in the dictionary that is going to change how I feel at this moment...I am anxious! How do I deal with it? Should I start taking it out on every person I see? Should I start manipulating situations to gain control over someone or something? Should I cause chaos, panic and drama to mask how I am really feeling inside? Should I be short, crabby and down right mean to others just because I am feeling anxious? Should I say..."Hell, with you all!"...and continue to have that negative, ugly, sulking, 5 year old attitude?
HALT!...Hungry?, Angry?, Lonely?, Tired?...Hmmmmmmmm! All of thee above! I will HALT! I will not do one thing I had mentioned above. I will be true to my recovery, myself and everyone else around me...I will HALT! I will run! I will write! I will call a friend, my sponsor or go to a meeting. I will deal with me and nothing other than that! I will feel those anxious feelings and then, thank God I can feel them today, name what that feeling is and mostly deal with it without drugs or alcohol! I will do what I can do and be proud that I did. That I tried! That I have dealt with my anxiety in a positive way and negative. I have choices today and I know what to do. I have my sobriety and that is all I need to deal with any challenges that come my way. I have a God of my understanding and that will never be taken from me. I have tools today to fight those anxious feelings. Too feel those anxious feelings. I can deal with my anxious feelings!
Suddenly, I am at peace. Suddenly, I can see clearly now without fear, without the need to control or without panic. Suddenly, I am allowing God to remove this anxiety without me taking it back. Suddenly, my recovery today is not filled with anxiety. I am no longer anxious!
Do you at times feel anxious? If so, how do you deal with it? Today, I will run with no anxious feelings in my body today. I will enjoy my run with God!
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