I have been struggling to blog on a consistent basis given some interruptions in my personal life. I apologize. However, I just couldn't bring myself to give the last day of 2012 a miss! (Sorry for that title, I couldn't help myself!)
This year has been very eventful indeed. From moving to our new home to returning to Singapore as a family for the first time, to having a much-needed long-awaited holiday with my husband, to home renovations, to starting a blog... and not forgetting that crazy FFS labour I had to go through to crack my body open to bring forth a very fierce, screaming Bub (that's another story for another day)...
I have not had the most beautiful of wrapups to the year.
But that doesn't matter.
Good things happen, bad things happen, happiness, disappointments - circle of life.
It has been a good year overall nonetheless and I try to stick to my 2 rules: not to feel sorry for myself and to count my blessings.
It is difficult not to turn melancholic on the whole thing. I must remember, I no longer bear the privilege of being 14 lol. Let there be no woe-is-me the-world-be-damned emotional-sensational words of wise-assdom here.
Instead of recapping the main events of this year in detail, I thought I would look forward instead.
When I look forward, I think of the word: Fresh.
I want it to be Fresh.
When I googled Fresh, I got a whole bunch of images of fruits & veg.
O-kay... struggling to find some form of relevance to my emotions... nope, not getting it..
Fruits and veges are good, as any mom would say.
But what I want for my new year is more of...
This.
Fresh beginning.Fresh start.Fresh me.
I also got a bunch of pictures of Dew.
Dew is good.
I like dew.
Dew is fresh.
I even found it in me to google "dew".
Dew: "Tiny drops of water that form on cool surfaces at night, when atmospheric vapor condenses"
I like the sound of that. I like the sound of how in the still of the night, amidst the silence of earthly slumber, there is still something happening. Something in the bigger picture. Creation is still happening. Life is still happening. God is still at work. He doesn't slumber. I don't talk much about my faith on this blog. But faith is all I have now... when all goes to shit. Who puts God and shit in the same sentence? Probably a very cynical, downtrodden young woman trying her darnest to hold on to the last thread of hope and faith.
And what was that again about not turning melancholic on the whole thing...
I did Literature all through school & uni. So bear with me.
Actually... do hang around.
I think it might be a good year yet.
While I try my best to get my bearings right again.
And try to get my writing mojo back amidst the dramas (as you can see, my writing reflects my state of mind now)
I do like fresh dew. I like fresh beginnings and fresh MEs.
From the bottom of my heart,A very Happy New Year one and all&Thanks for hanging around; I could definitely use the company xx
Photo credits: Fruits & Veg | Sanctuary | Dew | Dew
