Negative beliefs are haunting…
You are a bad daughter…you broke up your parents/ There divorce was all your fault (said my old church pastors)
You are a whore (screamed my old best friend)
You are not capable of anything/ You will never be good enough or as smart as me /I am a saint and you are a vile sinner/ you are selfish and ungrateful (indirectly said my narcissistic father)
You are stupid and slow (said my coworkers)
Art is not a degree worth pursuing (said everyone literal)
I should not be alive/ you are a mistake (said my parents when I was born)
You are fat and ugly/ you are not worthy of love/ your a prostitute and it is the only thing you will ever be good for (said childhood abuse)
Everything my fault
No one will ever like you
You are a failure (said the little girl)
These are the demons screaming in my head… I can not think straight or hear what people are saying over them. I am exhausted from the silent screaming. I am exhausted for apologizing for guilt that I can not make go away. I am exhausted from carrying the shame. It makes my stomach sick…
What do you do when you are your own worst enemy?
Stay strong <3 You are not alone
