Hooray for the end of 2012...
2012... Where do I begin?
I think it's safe to say that 2012 has been an up and down, "what the f***" kind of year. It has been one of the worst year's of my life, but also one of the best. "But how does that even make sense?" you say... Well it does. You know it does.If you have a small brain like me, then you will understand how confusing irony and paradoxes can be (the definitions alone), and that is how I would describe 2012. One big ironic paradox. I know that them two words cannot be used together, but that is my point exactly.It was such a messy year, and although I feel quite relieved to be in 2013, is it weird that I miss being in the year 2012 already?Anyway, I thought I'd write a little about 'my' 2012 recap....
For me, my year didn't really begin until the end of August. I feel as though I am cheating somewhat by starting my year from August instead of January, but that is the truth. From January up until the end of August, 2012 was a blur. The year didn't start off too great, as I had recently left my current job and I was unemployed. I left it because it was not what I wanted to do. It was a dead-end, crappy and depressing job and I was getting no sense of achievement out of it whatsoever. It made me feel empty. So I quit. And I can honestly say, it was the best thing I have ever done.From February onwards, 2012 continued to be a very dramatic and emotional roller coaster. I was unemployed, forever applying for other jobs and I just wasn't myself anymore. Then I found out some news (which I will not go into because of personal reasons), but let's just say it was a very hard time for me. April onwards, I still wasn't even close to feeling like myself. Luckily, I had another job, but I still wasn't doing something that made me feel proud of myself. I wasn't expressing "who I was" or what I wanted to be. I felt as if I was trapped in this tiny, claustrophobic bubble that I couldn't seem to break out of. But in all honesty, that was my own fault. And I will put my hands up and fully admit to that. I wasn't pushing or motivating myself or making any effort to change my life.When the middle of August came around, I decided it was time to make some changes. I wasn't going to just sit there anymore and succumb to the peer pressure in society and just get any 'average joe' job, just to get money. No. F*** that. That might sound selfish and ungrateful but come on, be honest with yourself. Doesn't everyone want to succeed in life? Doesn't everyone deserve to be doing something they are actually good at and really want to do? Yes they do. Don't get me wrong, I completely respect the people that are just doing their jobs for the money, just so they can help support themselves and their families, and if the time comes when I need to put myself in that same position for similar circumstances, then I will. But until then and while I am young, I will try as hard as I can to make something of myself.So at the end of August, I decided I wanted to make jewelry. I love jewelry and I love being creative. So I thought f*** it. Put two and two together and what do you get? A conclusion. And my conclusion was making jewellery, and I've been making it ever since then! www.ohellabella.co.uk (just thought I'd drop that cheeky link in there). Of course, it takes a lot of time and effort to be successful in a small business, so at the moment it is just a little hobby. One day I hope to get there. But at the moment, I am doing pretty well. I've got so many ideas and new items coming out within this year, I'm excited. Even if I don't get anywhere with it, (which I hope I do) then that's fine. That's life. At least I am enjoying myself for the time being and doing something I want to do...
Attractively drunk
I turned 22 in September. I know 22 isn't like turning 21 or 18, but I still had a lovely birthday. My boyfriend (Jack) made it very special for me (thanks beb). For my birthday night out, me and a few close friends headed up to Gatecrasher in Birmingham and it was bloody awesome. Obviously there were a few hiccups here and there, a bit of drama and a bit of vomiting (JASMINE), but all in all, it was a successful night.
The biggest highlight of my year was in November. I was luckily enough to bag a job, which I really want to do. I am still working there now and although I have to get up at 6am on weekdays, it is totally worth it. I am so grateful for the opportunity.
A few other highlights of my year were...
Clothes Show Live 2012
So there you have it. My re-cap of 2012. This year may have been a crappy year, but in my opinion, it has been a learning year. It has made me look at myself and my life differently and it has helped me change who I was, into who I am now.I thank 2012 for that.I'd like to thank all my friends and family for absolutely everything. Whether it was making me laugh, or getting drunk together and making a fool out of ourselves, or listening to me talk, or giving me advice, or having a shoulder to cry on or just buying me a Birthday/Christmas present (mainly you guys hehe)... I love you all so much and I am so grateful to have you all. But especially... My boyfriend. Thank you for being my rock. Without him, I wouldn't be where I am or who I am. I love you.So what will 2013 bring? Are you guys ready? "I aint scurreddddd..." Well maybe I am. Just a little.Good bye 2012. Hello 2013.
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