Lately I have been acting like a little child throwing the world biggest temper tantrum. Rolling around on the ground kicking and screaming of how unfair life has been.
I can hear her little voice shouting as she jumps up and down, “look at me!! please notice I am here, please give me love!!!” This need for attention has resulted in some very unhealthy patterns:
- Ran strait into the arms of one dysfunctional relationship after another
- Worn myself thin with people pleasing
- Blamed everyone else for my problems
- Not treated myself with respect
- Complained and whined
- Ran from responsibilities
- Relied on other people for my happiness
- Disregarded my needs and ran aimlessly in abusive circles
- Hid behind addiction
- Been selfish and uncaring to others and myself
- Become passive-aggressive and irritable
This is a result of complacent living. Complaining and whining will not get anything changed. A sense of discontent and anxious discomfort has drive me to take action. With action I can take back the power over my life. I choose to no longer be a powerless victim, but a strong survivor.
What actions do I plan to take?
- Learning to make boundaries
- Going back to school
- Nourishing my body with healthy food
- Getting more fresh air
- Get enough rest
- Being honest
- Getting an education
- Learning/trying new things
- Learn to balance work and seriousness with play time
I would love to hear what you do to take action in life
Stay strong <3 you are not alone
