Abuse has left me feeling undone… I can not escape the social anxiety closing in on my mind. I must find a place to hide. Where to turn to find safety?
Church was supposed to be a safe place, yet they have left me dead inside. It was not safe to cry. It was not safe to be real about the secrets I hide. We had to lie and pretend to be a false illusion of happy to be accepted. I can see the disapproval looking back at me in their eyes. Ashamed I run away and hide.
The abuse was framed on me, they said it was my fault my family fell apart… who are they to judge what they do not know?
Embarrassed I sink more into the silence. I fear speaking. I fear people watching me. I fear more brutal embarrassment and mockery. Little heart can not take all the fear, little lips are too terrified to say a word, to breath.
What do you do when you do not feel safe? How do you cope?
Stay strong <3 You are not alone
