I feel as if I have become cold and uncaring
Actually I do not know what it is to feel
When I was little I decided that hurting was too painful and unnecessary
So i became a zombie
It amazes me when I see couples in love
It is such a daunting concept because I am not too sure what it is to love
I am not too sure if it really even exists
All the relationships I see around me are so obsessive…I don’t want that
I want to breath
I hate being sufficated by affection and obsession
My father was so suffocating and creepy
It makes me so ANGRY!
This hate is eating me alive
How can I ever love another when I don’t even love me
When I don’t even know me
When I have nothing
I remain alone and detached from getting too close
To anyone
I don’t want my heart to break any more
It is already shattered all over the ground
I am incomplete
I have no idea how to let anyone close
I won’t even tell myself my own secrets
Vounerablity leads to heartbreak
I don’t know if my heart can break anymore
…God please put me back together
…You feel so far away and I feel little and alone
I am not too sure what to do
