After that incident, I simply made sure I didn't drink that much at one time anymore. I also started paying more attention to my eating habits and tried not to go too long without eating properly. After a couple of months, I had reached a point in my life where I had so many questions as to what to do next. Was I really going to have to move back in with my parents? If so, what's going to happen with me and my girlfriend? What if I find a good job before my lease expires and I'm able to keep my apartment? What am I going to do? By this time, my girlfriend had moved out of her apartment and into an apartment complex next door. It was only a few walking minutes away from mine. Aside from the fact that my situation was getting worse, our relationship was doing pretty good. Since she didn't move very far away, we still saw each other everyday. I really appreciated the fact that she hadn't left me yet because if I was her I probably would have left me a long time ago. She did still complain about me drinking too much so I would try to make sure she never caught me really drunk.
Soon after, I started calling off of work to the point where I was on my last straw. The supervisor had called me in her office and told me that if I called off one more time, I was going to be terminated. Most of the times I called off was simply because I didn't want to go in. I figured it was senseless. Like I said before, I wasn't making much money there and it was simply a way for me to get out of my apartment, see and talk to some people and make a little money at the same time. If it wasn't for me working that job I would have been living like a hermit. I would have literally sat in my apartment and drank all day. I had also come to the point where I realized that I was going to have to move back in with my parents. I had made enough money to complete the terms of my lease, but after that I was back to square one. So in my mind, I really didn't need the job anymore. That being said, I just stopped going to work. After my second consecutive no-call no-show, the supervisor called me and asked if I was going to call in for the day. I told her no, because after she told me that if I called off one more time I would be fired, I figured I was already fired. She said she was going to list me as quitting the job because I stopped coming to work. She told me that if I didn't return my badge that it would be five dollars deducted from my last pay check. I told her they can just deduct the five dollars because I will spend that just to come up there and return the badge. And that was it, I was back jobless.
Before I knew it, it was time for me to move out. I had talked to my parents about it and they suggested that I move my things into storage because they didn't have room for it in their basement. They didn't mine me moving back in with them. As a matter of fact, they suggested it. They had been constantly telling me that it was something I was trying to hold on to that was stopping me from truly getting my life together. And they were absolutely right! I wanted to hold on to my freedom of course, but I also wanted to hold onto being able to drink whenever I wanted to, and as long as I was doing that, I would never get my life back in order. The closer it came for me to move in with my parents, my girlfriend suggested that I move in with her. Although I had considered, I didn't think it would be a good idea because she worked and I had just quit my job; and I didn't want to be sitting around her place not being able to contribute.