Monster

By Uglytruthis

I am so angry and so numb, sometimes I feel as if I am wandering aimlessly into a sea of nothingness. Going nowhere in life I feel empty and bored of everything. I feel as if my feelings are resurfacing from the past after years of numb pretending to have it all together. I don’t know who to talk to, I feel like I can not be honest with people about my trauma because they won’t believe me. I don’t know how to say the things that need to be said.

I don’t know what to do…

I don’t let anyone get close or open up

There are walls built so high, I can’t even see over them to know what is going on inside

I think the thought that I am struggling the most with is the lie that I will never amount to anything

I don’t even know who I am

….God why have you left me here all alone

Please shed some light upon this negative monster eating my mind