Love?
Someday we will find what we are looking for. Or maybe we wont, maybe we will find something much greater than that.
Heres to hoping anyway......
The fact that is, what if we don't find love???? I mean, we live our lives with the thought that it will happen someday.......
The fear of the unknown is a powerful thing. In my mind LOVE is what its all about, its what we are here for, its what we are all searching for. Love is what makes life worth it, Loving someone or having someone Love us is everything.
"I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once"
I was in love once, it was the best and worst time of my life, but thats what i think Love is. Its the good and the bad all mixed in together, thats why its so special because you cant experience something as pure as love without having the heartache as well. Its like heartache is the negative side affect of love.
I wish i had realised this at the time, i had an unrealistic view of love when i was a bit younger as i'm sure many other girls did too, i grew up watching Cinderella and The Little Mermaid etc this obviously giving me the impression that every girl will be swept off her feet by her "Prince Charming" and their love will be perfect and nothing will break them and they will live "Happily ever after".
Well at the moment i don't have my happily ever after, that came and went with my relationship, which i miss most days, constantly remembering what was and realising what isn't now. Having to put on a brave face to my friends and pretend i'm over it, over him, otherwise its the constant judging and questions "you still miss him", "your still not over him". I shouldn't care, but i'm only human, of course i am going to care what my friends think and i take on board their opinions but i shouldn't let it affect my choices, i should still be me and do me. When it comes down to it, when it involves something as precious as Love, do what you want, choose what you want, its your life, it needs to be your own decision. Thats what growing up is all about, learning from your mistakes and being able to move on knowing you did everything you could............ I didn't, i should of tried harder, been better, i shouldn't of given up.
"What is life without being able to share it with the one you love"
I have witnessed lots of people being in love in my life. Friends, family and even strangers, out of all of it only a couple of them in my eyes has been that "one true love", the love that we all dream of. I believe that we aren't all lucky enough to be able to experience "that" love......... the love of soul mates. Its too rare for everyone to be able to have it, but for those lucky few that get it, i'm jealous of you. But it gives me hope that some point in the future i might be lucky enough to have it myself too......... fingers and toes are crossed.'When i saw you i fell in love, and you smiled because you knew" William Shakespeare
