January 2018

Hello friends
Apologies for the lack of posts in DecemberIt was a tricky enough monthWhich saw me have a few drinks And then promptly stopped when I realized it was becoming more than an occasional thingChristmas came and went I had one small meltdown Which didn’t last long and I got over it fairly quickly Food wise I am doing okGot out of routine g over the holidays But am now back on trackI saw my doctor yesterday While I was in the waiting roomI met a woman who I have seen in about a year She said to me‘Have I got the right person? Are you Ruth?’I was like em yea it’s meShe went on to tell that I looked like I had had a face lift This is also the woman who when I last saw her jiggled my arms and commented on my weight gainBut lookI don’t let these things bother meIf I let every little thing bother me I wouldn’t get very farBut I guess it just goes to showNow these comments don’t bother me Where as a couple of years agoThey would have sent me over the edgeI keep in touch with MaryShe often asks me to help out with different media talking from my own point of view At the end of the monthI am giving a talk in a nursing college Which is really excitingMy Mam is also speakingAfter all it is a family affair...
In other news I am still horse riding And still loving it My instructor tells me we will start jumping soonWhich is what I’ve been waiting for I just can’t wait I’ve been waiting since last May And now it’s finally happening!Yay!Up until last weekThings had been going great with Cocos owner We were talking And had a buddy in mind for CocoIt looked like it was really going to happen Until Wednesday When I rang him to tell him I had booked the farrier He verbally attackedTold me I have my priorities all wrong And I should be getting a bridle for Coco before I do anything Told me I am full of ‘ buts and excuses’And I need to look forward not backThe call ended with me telling him if he wanted a bridle to go and get one He promptly hung up on meI was left stunned after the callAnd became very upsetCocos owner has often acted a bit oddBut this was another levelAnd it actually makes me think that he might be a bit unstable (Ha ha no pun intended)That I should probably stay clear for a while  So I haven’t seen Coco in a few days And am missing him a lot It’s not fair though I have put so much time and energy in to CocoHe has come such a long way But I have this complete asshole to contend with I’ve to consider whether it is worth it At the moment I don’t know One thing I do know is that he owes me a massive apologyI mean who does he think he is Not only to another personBut to the person who looks after your God damned pony!I mean really...?On the quiet I have been scoping out fields over in my areaTechnically Coco belongs to the charity that rehomed himSo it might be a possibility to go through themBut we’ll seeI’m not rushing in to anything 
AnywayThis Is my life these days It mostly consists of fields, dogs, horses and the rest I’ve never been happier Or more content I hope all of you are doing okIf I’m not friends with you on FBSend me an email and I’ll send you my name so we can become friends How was your Christmas??