I don’t feel good today… I try to keep the broken pieces of me held together with a smile. I feel ashamed of my body and the things that where done to it. I feel embarrassed of being a girl. I can not cover up the shame with the clothes I put on my body. I can not run from the anxiety crawling underneath my skin. I feel I have lost my own way within my own soul and do not know where I am going.
How do you hold together the chaos you feel…
God…. It seems you have left me for dead. I feel angry at your people and angry at you for letting me be born into such an abusive family. please forgive me for the things I feel unworthy of. Please help me love myself because love is such a foreign concept and I do not know how to do this alone. I can only distract and cover the truth for so long as it surfaces I can not sleep. I have lost my appetite for food. I feel the loss of innocence and time and space all at once. I want to feel better, I want to feel hope…
Stay strong, you are not alone <3"><3"><3
xoxo
