Robbie Williams’ Escapology album
These are the lyrics to a song called “Feel” by British singer Robbie Williams…aside from really liking the music, these lyrics have struck a chord with me ever since I first heard them on his Escapology album, which was issued back in 2002…a lot’s happened in my life since then, and these words ring true now more than ever…
Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I’ve been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don’t understand
I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
‘Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don’t want to die
But I ain’t keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I’m preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That’s why I keep on running
Before I’ve arrived
I can see myself coming
I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
‘Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up
I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste
I just want to feel real love
In a life ever after
There’s a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It’s a real big place
Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I’ve been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand…
As a single, divorced dad in middle age, watching his daughter enter her last year of high school before setting off for college, I sometimes wonder if the loneliness that pervades these lyrics are my future, or if I’ll find that “real love” that this song talks about.
Every time I listen to this song, I think to myself, “I’m not sure I understand either…” – but I keep listening…
