Fear has controlled my life up to this point. Growing up in a dysfunctional home taught I had no choice but my choices would be made for me. If I was to say no my life was threatened. My narcissistic of a father inflicted fear into my little heart. He used to control my life…
Intimidation, belittlement and life threats were a way of control. A house were there were no normal rules to hold onto, just whatever the present moment called for in his twisted mind. Religious rigidity ruled the calls. I was made to feel like God was waiting for me to go burn in hell… just like the father was.
I still find myself cowering down and crumbling in situations that feel out of control or unknown When things are not defined and I am not sure precisely what to do I panic because of the fear of being ridiculed so brutally. I was not treated like a human being.
Locked away like an animal in a cage Disrespected and left for dead, her bloodshot eyes scream for saving. Her memories are fleeting…
Hello Fear,
YOU WILL NOT CONTROL ME ANYMORE
I will not cower in your presence
YOU DO NOT OWN ME!!!!!
I AM NOT YOUR PROPERTY
BACK OFF!!!!
THIS IS MY LIFE
DO NOT TELL ME HOW TO LIVE IT
That is for me to decide
I OWN MY LIFE
YOU HAVE NO MORE RIGHTS
TO BULLY ME
TO SHUT MY MOUTH
TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO
NO MORE
YOU ARE DONE
I am done with you
you have no more right to live here
I am free
Stay strong <3 You are not alone
