I felt sick yesterday morning. I thought morning sickness is over but yesterday I felt not doing anything except lie down in bed. I was crying since the other day just because I couldn't eat and the discomfort that I'm undergoing. I was okay during my stay in Manila last December 23-27 to spend Christmas with my family. I didn't eat much but I still ate. Although it was a tiring trip to the mall and Manila Ocean Park, I was able to rest, get lots of sleep, didn't cook (except for breakfast) nor wash any dishes. And I just thought that it would also not be a good idea to dine out as much as we could if I won't be able to enjoy it.
There are many food thoughts that came to mind. One of them is to stop thinking of food ideas for next year and just concentrate on my eating and pregnancy. I may be able to cook but I couldn't eat them like I used to. The other night I made French Green Lentils with Italian Sausage, and some Sauteed Shrimp with Pan-Fried Potatoes. I spit out the sausage and the shrimp and ate only 5 slices of potatoes. Then I realized that I cannot eat when I'm tired. I need to calm down before I eat but who else would cook for me.
Iced water is also a relief. I've been putting a lot of ice on my water which is the complete opposite on how I drink it before: warm. It tasted really good and it's really refreshing most especially with bit of citrus. I never looked at iced water the same way as I do now. But I know my stomach needs something warm and hot.
My cravings are different these days. Before I really like strong and assertive flavours but it has changed. Now, I want something simple such as the humble
banana, the unpretentious sweet potato, the straightforward soft to medium boiled native egg (but some grilled asparagus, olives, goat's cheese and a crusty bread would go well with it and make that yolk in sunset hue please), and some native chicken soup with malunngay leaves. Cold somen noodles with a dipping sauce or soba noodles in it's broth are also welcome. Most of the foods that I like these days are cooked with no oil. Too much fat makes me vomit. I'm very thankful for J's parents for taking care of me here in Cebu, for buying the ingredients, for preparing and cooking them.
It's probably a good thing that I'm on leave for a semester. It would have been a double test for me to deal with food both in school and at home. But food is not the only culprit. I don't like loud music and noises and environment that stresses me out. I hate the smell of cigarette smoke and any unpleasant aroma. Strong perfumes give me a headache. Yet I delight in long, slow deep breathing listening to relaxing calm piano or violin concerto playing at the background; and paired with some aromatherapy in lavender and mint would have been even nicer.
I feel better today but I'll have my post for granola on hold. Hopefully as I moved to the 2nd trimester, my appetite would go back to normal looking at food with a different perspective and a fresh, inspired positive attitude for 2014.
Have a blessed and fruitful new year!
