Victimization has been ruling her life since the days long ago she felt she lost all at the hands of those cruel men… Guilt drives us to the point were we feel there is no hope for forgiveness. We have gone too far and it really does not matter anymore. Dehumanization go hand in hand with self sabotage to fill the empty void of hate within.
I have ran myself in circles, searching for myself in the arms of abuse. Looking for myself in the voice of men that lie. They are only looking for one thing, which is not love. They are all just like my father, clingy and needy and draining to the soul. In trying to make them happy I have yet lost my sense of self worth. Or in retrospect have not found a sense of worth.
I have yet only found fear clinging inside these cold bones of old.
Walking away has been a slow process because facing the silence if frightening. In the silence I can hear my own thoughts… Yet within the silence I am beginning to find inner peace.
In the silence it is OK to be me
That little broken girl is no mistake
Stay strong <3 You are not alone
