Work Induction

I'm just back from my first day of work inductionMyself and another girl were there to meet the managerAnd to go through what we will be doing And our hours Luckily Most of my hours are at the weekend With one short evening shift on a WednesdaySo really and truly it doesn't interfere with my other activities I will still get to horse riding Wednesday morningTo my meetings And appointments Which is greatI'll be working about 22 hours a weekWhich means my disability will be effected slightly But that's okI will get to keep the majority of itI actually found out this weekThat I can only earn €120 or less each week without my disability being effectedSo that's less than ten hours a weekWhich wouldn't be worth my whileOr my employers So any hours over that tenMy disability will be cut on a sliding scale But I think it will all work out fineI'm going to do the 22 hoursI think it will be good for me 
We were given so much information todayIt was mind boggling The other girl there was a lot younger than me Early twenties I'd sayBut we had a little chatAnd she seems lovely Georgina is the manager And she is very firm but fair I like her a lot There is no nonsense about her She gave us a lot of possible scenarios that could possibly happen Basically The holiday center is a non profit center for those who ordinarily couldn't afford a holiday It is run by a charity called St. Vincent de PaulThey also run a thrift shopAnd an elderly care home I did the interview for the job back in FebruaryAnd it has been a long process to get this farBut I am super excited to start working Georgina emphasised that the three things key to the centreAre friendliness, cleanliness and good food She really gave us a great introduction to working there I'm back in on Thursday to meet the rest of the staffWe finished up at lunch timeAnd I seized the opportunity to have a quick chat with Georgina She needed my bank details and things And while we were doing some paperworkShe asked me if I thought it would be too much for me As I had explained to her the last time we met about my EDAnd how I am in recovery I was honest with herAt first I felt a little out of my depthThis is my first proper job in quite a while And I told her it was a confidence thing with me more than anything elseGeorgina assured me that she had every confidence and faith in meAnd said I would be like a new woman by the end of the three months working It was nice to hear that she believes in meI just wish I had the same belief in myself But I guess that will come in time
I really think this job could be a life changer for me If I can just face my fears and anxieties Turn up And give it my best I start officially June 3rdSo I have just over a week to get myself prepared I know I'm going to be nervousStarting a new job is tough for anyone And throw in a few mental health issuesAnd an addiction to drugsIt could all go very wrongBut I'm choosing to be positive And to go in with a clear and level and open mind I know the first few shifts will be bumpy As I get used to their way of doing things But I know if I can just hang in thereIt could be the making of me It could give me back my confidence That I so desperately missIt could help me see that I am capable and able to workIt could even be a stepping stone on to more work I'm a hard worker And I love to be busy Love to be on the go all the time And this job will most definitely be busy Which will suit me down to the ground 
Because of the nature of the workI will be dealing with vulnerable people People with mental health issuesAddictionFor some people This will be their first holidayPeople who might not be used to a structured environment Who don't eat three square meals a day We are situated on the towns main road So anyone can wander inAnd it will be up to me to deal with these people I hope given the fact that I have experienced a lot in my lifeWill help me to be empathetic And understanding But at the same timeI can't let myself be taken advantage ofBecause I think I can be seen as a soft touch sometimes I was interested in listening to Georgina today As she is so friendly and warmBut at the same time I know she takes no shit from anyoneI would love to be like that And hopefully this job will help me find my own voiceMy own inner confidence And self esteem 
Despite my anxiety thoughI am going to do this I am going to go in with a positive mind set Anything I don't know I can ask And I think throwing myself in at the deep end is good for meAs then I have to figure things outBut you guys This is a huge deal for me My job will even be put through the books!Something that hasn't happened to me in a long time My last two jobs were cash in hand But now I'm going to be a proper Bona fide employee!How exciting is that?I'm just so happy that I'm going to be able to fit in everything around my jobIt's so very important to meTo be able to go horse riding To see my doctor And Breda And MaryIt's going to be a busy summer That's for sure But you know what?This is itThis is me living my life Feeling the fear and doing it anywayThis is making huge progress with my independence And that is just wonderful for me Finally Things are all coming together for meAnd I feel alive!
Please say a wee prayer for me this weekI know all you ladies are behind meAnd I appreciate that so muchThank youYou are amazing!