I hope you know that you can get well
I hope you know that your eating disorder doesn't define you
It doesn't mean you are crazy or weak or defective
I hope you know that you are unique, there is only on of you and no one can ever replace you
I hope you know that thoughts are just thoughts, we don't have to act on them
I hope you can remember that once you were happy and free and you can be again
I hope you know that it's possible to recover, people do recover
I hope that you believe in yourself or at least can accept that others believe in you
I hope you know that even if you fall, you can get up even stronger
I hope you know that you would be missed if you were gone
I hope you can see that you are lovable
I hope you know that happiness is not a dress size
It's not a weight
It's not measured on a scale
It's not a number
Happiness is not how small your waist is
Or how much your bones protrude
Strength is not how long you can starve for
How long you can exercise
How much weight you can lose
Strength is fighting back
Not giving in to the eating disorder
It's eating even though you don't want to
Even though even fiber of your being feels that it is wrong
Strength is eating and allowing the food to stay in your stomach
It's keeping going when all you want to do is hide in your bed
It's not letting this thing rule and ruin your life
Strength is choosing to live even though it would be easier to die
It's doing the right thing for you even when it's not popular with others
It's having the courage to be yourself
It's speaking your truth
It's being you
With love,
Ruby x
