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I have an update on the whole friend' situation
I got a text from her yesterday asking me to call in to her workplace for a chatI didn't respond And she seems oblivious to the fact that I might be hurt or upset by her behavior recentlyThen todayI went and used the sunbed in townI had just finished And was driving to the supermarket to pick up some thingsWhen I saw her pulling out of the car park in her carThere was no hiding or avoiding the situationI was headed straight for herShe saw meFlashed her lightsAnd waved I gave a limp wave back I figured she was in her way to work as she didn't stop
I went about my business And was picking up something's in the shopWhen my phone pinged a messageI took it out and opened the messageIt was from herSaying that she had gone on to use the sunbed But I was on itAnd could I do get a 'huge favour'And pick her up a large coffee with milk and three sugarsShe also said that she was feeling badAfter a rough few days
I read the message twiceIt was offensive on so many levelsFirst of allShe seemed to insinuate that I shouldn't have been on the sunbed because she needed it before workSecond pick her up a coffee?What am I?A personal assistant?She had just come from the supermarketWhere they sell plenty of said coffeeCould she not have managed that by herself?ThirdShe says that she's had a rough few daysSo now she wants to see meWhen she's strugglingNow it suits her to see meNever mind that she blew me off the other day to get a tattooAnd lastlyShe seems to have no clue that her behavior is out of orderOr inappropriateI just feel so used This friendship is on her termsShe picks me up when she needs me Or wants meAnd drops me when she feels like itI am a loyal friendAnd this has been going on for quite a whileI ways had a gut feeling that the way she was treating me was not onBut I ignored itAs I needed a friend I was speaking with Breda on MondayAnd I discussed this issue with herBut even then I was doubting myself And wondering if I was being overly sensitiveBreda told me to have confidence in my gut feelingSo I am going toBreda also mentioned that people treat you the way you allow them toAnd I have been letting this girl walk all over me Well not any more
I'm not looking for a confrontationOr a fightOr anything like itI just don't need this kind of drama in my lifeI'm not asking for muchI just want a friend who will treat me wellBe there for meSomeone who is loyalAnd who I can trustIt's not easy to make new friends when you're my ageI just want a couple of good friendsI think I am a good friend to have When I am wellGranted When I am not doing well I may not be the best friend But this girl does not have that excuseShe is doing really well at the moment
So what to do?Well first things firstI'm going to throw myself in to recovery and meetingsPut my head down And get done clean time behind meI am bound to run in to this girl at some stageWe live near the same townWe go to the same meetings It's going to be tricky I'm hoping that it will dawn on her why I am being so coolBut then again It might not even enter her head 
I was in two minds as to whether to write this post or notBecause as you knowI don't tend to give out about people in this blogOt speak badly about anyoneBut in this instanceI feel I have to write about this situationAs I value your advice and words of wisdomAnd we girls do tend to have friendship drama from time to time
With all that saidI was wondering about you Have you ever been In This situation?How do you think I should handle it?Do you believe we should trust our gut feelings?Inquiring minds want to know.....