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I made a mistake last weekI had been dying to know my weight As I felt like it was spinning out of controlI was going to buy a scales But they had none in my local pharmacy Is that a sign or what?Anyway As I waited for my meds to be dispensed I spotted the stand in scales in the corner of the store It was one where you put in a coinAnd it takes your weight Your heightAnd your BMICuriosity over took me I took off my jacket and my trainers And put a coin in to the slot I stood holding my breathAs if the air in my lungs would effect the reading The machine printed out my ticket I put it in my coat pocketAnd I took a seat I was torn about whether to look at it It was burning a hole in my jeans  I wanted to know Yet I didn't want to knowI knew it was a bad idea But I just couldn't help myself I tentatively pulled the slip of paper from my jeans pocket My heart was thumping And I prepared myself for the worst caseI opened the ticket And processed the numbers  My weight in stones and pounds Also in kilograms My percentage body fat And my BMI Which was between 21 and 22It couldn't be more average if I tried And I hate being average Seriously though My weight is pretty much what I thought it was Even so I don't like itI feel big and cumbersome And generally feeling a bit upset about the whole thingI'm not going on a diet Or anything of the sortI just want to become a little more mindful of how I eatAnd not exist on chocolate bars and chipsI want to establish a healthy eating planAnd look I know that's not sustainable 100% of the time Everything in moderation Including moderation 
I just want to feel Ok in my body And I don't feel that at the moment I'm not slipping or relapsing  at all That is for sure I just think thdtbindont need to gain any more weight So I can put a halt to that now 
So With all that said I was wondering about you Have you ever tried to eat differently while in recovery?Do you think it is a good idea?Why?Your feedback is much appreciated....