Tv Show Update

You might have noticed that I deleted a post about an email I got regarding taking part in a tv showI received an email from a lady from a tv company called Levant TvAsking me if I would be willing to take part in a tv debate about eatingdisordersThat is to be recorded next MondayI was suspicious of the email at firstAs it was so generalOut of curiosity I emailed the lady backA response came quicklyAnd it all sounded very professionalHowever I did want to speak to someone before committing to anything So I emailed my phone number And asked her to give me a callThe call came in within minutesAnd I spoke at length to the ladyShe explained that Levant Tv is Lebannese And their shows are streamlined on lineAs well as being shown on tv in some countriesShe described how there would be a few people taking part in this particular showA psychiatristAn eating disorder clinic directorThe mother of a young girl with an EDAnd myselfThis lady found me through my blogAnd wants me to spread the message of hopeThat there is light at the end of the tunnelAnd that there is life beyond an ED
To meThis all sounds greatThis is exactly the reason that I write my blogTo give others hope Yet give an honest and unflinching account of what it's like to live with an eating disorderI can't lieI am nervous beyond belief to do thisBut more than wanting to do itI feel I need to do itI feel like it's my responsibility to speak for us For everyone one of you who is out there in your own little corner of the world SufferingSome suffering aloneAnd in silenceIf I can give someone at least a little bit of hopeThen I am happy with thatI know when I first started trying to recover from drugsIt was so important to me that I saw someone who was doing itWho was actively enjoying recoveryNot enduring itSomeone who had been thereDone that Bought the extra small t-shirtIt's so very important to see another human being achieving what we want to achieve Because then we know that it is possibleThen we know that it's real
Part of me is feeling like a bit of a fraud thoughI meanIn all honestyI am no poster girl for recoveryI still struggle on daily basis I am no where near recoveredBut I guess that is a more realistic view of recoveryRecovery is a spectrumWe are all at different pointsBut we are all on itWhat ever stage we are atRecovery is not so black and whiteThere is a  huge gray area Where most of resideI hope to carry a message of hopeAnd also a realistic version of recoveryI just hope that I can do it justiceAs you knowI am not a great speakerI much prefer to write Then I can get the words out at my own pace Maybe the fact that I am on the phone will make it easierI don't know
I had to send a photo of myself that they will show when I am speaking Now that was an ordealWhich photo to choose?Instead if trawling through them allI used the first half decent one that o came across It was taken last winter I am out walking And the beach is in the background Anyway It'll do as they say
With all saidI am throwing the floor over to youAre there any specific topics or areas that you think I should address?Is there anything that you think is important to mention?Any advice you could give the mother of the young girl?Or anything they you think is worth mentioning?Do let me know if you can think of anything 
OkI'm off to pace manicallyAnd chew my finger nails As I await the up coming day.....