Tuesday

I've been working for the last few days And today I am freeAs I am for the next few daysI swearI am so confused with the days since I started working So I am a bit all over the place in that respectWork is going wellI am basically left to my own devicesIt's great that I have no one looking over my shoulder I just get on with my workAnd pretty much do my own thingThere was a new crowd in this weekA group from DublinThese people were a little bit special But they were the nicest people you could meet They were mostly men But there were three ladies too13 altogether It was great because some of the men actually helped us serve dinner When the chef sent it up to the dining room in the dumb waiter They were there waiting to hand it out to people My first day there I kept mixing up their names And it wasn't until my last day yesterday that I was really getting to know themThere was the lady who liked a few drinks and came on to the night porter The man who paced up and down constantly The man who had corn flakes for breakfast, lunch and teaThe man who ate and ate and was constantly asking for cups of teaAnd the man who was my secret favourite He was so polite And one day told me that I was a 'shining star'How nice is that?But really They were mentally unwell And some of their stories would break your heart I leave work every day feeling very grateful for my mental and physical health There was one man who had been severely mentally damaged from drugs He had also been in the army He came looking for tea a lot And put a ton of sugar in itBut all in all They were a pleasure Yesterday I said good by to them all And again I got hugs and kisses and thank yous But that wasn't the last time I saw them I was walking Lea through town this morning And we called in to the holiday centre Some of the men were there And they all wanted to run LeaBut if course she barked her head off Which I knew she would because she is nervous with strangers It was nice to see them though You really form bonds and relationships with these people And they are the best of craic
I've just been in to see my doctor Nothing to report there Just in and out Just the way I like itSo I am now just sitting in the pharmacy waiting for my script All in allThings are going quite well Work is keeping me honest My dogs are keeping me sane And my horse riding is keeping me fulfilled and excited So I really can't complain I now eat two of my meals in work I have my breakfast after the guests have theirs Then I have my lunch while the guests are eating theirs Yesterday I ate a fish dinner And didn't even think of purging Which is pretty amazing given where I was a few short months ago It's great though Work takes me out of my own head And I don't have time to think and over thinkIt is also massively helping with my confidence Chatting to people And meeting new people every weekIs really helping me to shake off my shyness and really engage with others So yes I am really enjoying work Of course It is hard work I'm on my feet all day Running up and down stairs Lifting Carrying Washing Drying Cleaning Brushing mopping Dealing with inquiries Serving food Collecting dishes It's tough going But I love it The day flies in as I'm so busy And of course it is so brilliant to get a pay check every weekIt's all very well being on disability And having money for doing nothing But earning it is so satisfying And good for my self esteemSo it's so good to be able to say that I am now working I am now earning my own money Paying my own way Contributing to society I think it came at exactly the right time Any sooner And I might not have been ready Because it is run by a charity It's not profit driven It's all about providing a holiday for people who might ordinarily get a holiday To really treat them And make a fuss of themIt gives me great satisfaction to know that I am helping make their holiday an enjoyable one That I am making a difference 
So yes All is good I am good And I am so grateful for that I am even more accepting of my body I am toning up around my shoulders and arms due to the horse riding And my legs feel tighter tooSo that makes dressing a less stressful experience 
Ok I'm off for a cuppa and a little rest See you on the next post....