Truth is Stranger Than Fiction

SoIt's the morning after the night before You guysI actually went!I can't quite believe it!On my goshYesterday was toughMy anxiety was through the freakin' roofI walked the dogs in the morningWent in to town in the afternoonSaw Mary at 2pmTold her about my dateShe was super excited for meWhich was niceShe told me it was completely natural to be nervous But I was anxious to the point where I was hoping he wouldn't callI was actually praying that he didn't like meAnd because I was going out I didn't want to take my medsAnd risk being all sleepy and dopeySo I was on high alert all day
I got home from town at about 4 30pmI was so keyed up that I couldn't eat a thingThen I realised that I couldn't remember if we said I was going to text himOr if he was going to text meSo I agonised over that for a couple of hoursMy sister was awaySo I only had my Mum here for supportBut she was great And helped me every step of the wayI decided to wait for him to textAnd he didAt about 6 30pm
Hey you want to go to cinema at 8 15pm or 11pm?
Part of me was glad he texted Part of me wasn'tI texted back
8 15pm I guess, if that suits you?
A few minutes later he rang And we arranged to meet outside the cinema I said I would give him a ring when I got there
All too soon it was time to get readyTo save on time and stress I had already picked out what I was going to wearBlue sleeveless shirtBlue ripped jeans My Roxy sneakers And black leather jacketCasualBut smartI straightened my hairAnd wore minimal make upBefore I knew itIt was time to go
But I had one dilemmaI was meeting him thereAnd I wasn't 100% sure what he looked likeSo I had to come up with a strategyI decided to arrive earlyAs I was to ring him when I arrivedMy plan was to wait just inside the doorAnd be on my phone when he came inSo he would have to come up to me and say my name I could imagine myself wandering up to single men sayingAre you The Plumber?Are you The Plumber?
The hardest part was actually getting from my front door to the carI really didn't want to goBut all I could think was that it would all be over in a few hours And I would kick myself if I didn't goSo I said goodbye to my MumMy dogs were sound asleepCompletely oblivious that their Mama was going on a date For a moment I wished I could swap places with one of them ButI got my shit togetherGrabbed my car keysAnd headed out in to the big bad world of dating
Once I got in my car I was surprisingly calmI was thinking about the most bizarre thingsMy head really was in a strange placeI arrived about 8 10pmPositioned myself just inside the cinema door Took out my phoneAnd pretended that I was sending some very important textsI rang himTold him where I wasAnd waited
You know the way when you speak to someone on the phone firstYou kind of build up a picture of them in your head?Well I had an image of what he looked likeI knew he was tallBut apart from that I had no clue what he looked likeI looked up from my phoneAnd saw a white van with blacked out windows I suspected that was himSo I went back to my phoneI could sense him approaching I braced myself 
Hello Ruby?
Yea hey?
We headed in to the cinemaGot our tickets He paid which was niceHe got a drinkI just couldn't stomach anything We headed inWe were the only people there In the whole cinemaWe took our seats And I took of my jacket as I was starting to sweatSurprisingly Conversation flowedWe chatted easilyLaughed at the fact that we had the whole cinema to ourselvesAnd bonusHe was really cuteTalkBroad Nice smileKind eyeThings were looking up...
The film startedAs I said in previous postsI was not thrilled about going to see AmyBut I had kind of prepared myself to be disconnectedSo I wouldn't get upsetThe documentary was great thoughSo much amazing footageBut it was so very sadAt times I had to remind myself that this was really her lifeAnd not fictionI just find the whole thing incredibly upsettingI followed her careerWatched her rise to fame And her spectacular downfallTo be honestI was glad when it was over
We both stretched And got up from our seats We headed outsideI was kind of afraid he would suggest going for a drinkBut he didn't
Do you want to come back to mine for tea or are you heading home?
I decided what the hell?I could go for an innocent cup of teaSo I followed him in my car back to his houseHe lives on his own And has a really lovely houseTypical blokes houseSparse and bareWith a huge f**k off tvAnd various computer consoles He turned on the tvMade tea And settled on the couchAgain Conversation came pretty easily I felt relaxed Even when he turned off the main light and switched on a low lampI managed to stay coolWe were watching a show about a hypnotistWhich was good as it was funnyAs soon as it was overYou guys!!!He totally jumped my bones!I swear I didn't even see it coming!One minute we were just sitting thereThe next he had pounced on me!I felt like I'd been hit by Mike TysonHoly shit I really wasn't expecting thatI went along with itUp to a certain pointWhen i started to feel uncomfortable I kind off pushed him offAnd put a stop to his wandering handsI mean he was going from zero to 60 very freakin' quickly
Go easy I saidCalm down a bit
He got the message and backed off I was honestI said I hadn't done this in a long time So he really needed to pace himself He got the messageAnd I was glad I just can't even go there in my mind And I was a bit annoyed that he had put me in that positionI mean maybe this is what happens Maybe I am being naive thinking that good old fashioned manners are still practisedI really don't know
I decided to head homeAnd said soHe leaned in againI gave a little A very littleAnd pushed him off againBy now he had definitely got the messageI put on my jacketAnd managed to nearly fall flat on my face as my foot caught in the strap of my bagHa!Typical meGraceful to the bitter end 
Needless to sayThings were a bit awkward after that I tyres to compose myself And stood up to leaveI walked over to the double doors to leave the living roomBut the door wouldn't open I was pulling it and pushing it but it wouldn't budge
Eh it's the other door Don't worry I haven't locked  you in
I  thought that was funnyAnd laughedOh I almost forgotIn between everything he told me that he was singleGet thisOnly the last couple of weeks!I was really surprised to hear thisAs it's been more than that since he asked my neighbor about meRed flags flying up all over the shop 
I made my way to the front door He leaned in againSaid he would text tomorrowAnd I leftOh my goodness I was glad to get back to the safety of my little carI started the engine and made for homeTrying to process everything that had happenedI had to smile as I though back on the nightI'm not sure if I like him or notI meanHe's definitely good lookingBut I worried that he thought of me as a one night standAs that was really the last thing I was looking for
I arrived homeMy Mum had waited up I told her all about itOmitting the fact that I had been pounced onShe told me that she had been half expecting me to arrive home earlyOr not go through with it at allIt would have been easy to cancel But I don't get dates that oftenAnd I really wanted to get out there in the big bad worldReally liveReally push my boundariesAnd I sure as hell did that
My sister texted meAnd I filled her inShe thought it was hilariousAnd I guess it was kind of funnyMen are strange creatures for sureI was all wound up when I got home And tried to relax with a cup of teaBut my mind just kept playing the nights events over in my head again and againI went to bed Read for a whileAnd eventually drifted off to sleep 
So now it's morningAnd I find myself hoping that he will textJust to know that someone likes me would be enoughI mean he must have been attracted to me or he wouldn't have jumped me right?Unless he was just looking for one thingAnd I truly hope he wasn'tThat is just not my styleAnd he's going to have to suck that upI have no idea where this will lead I mean I'd like to see him againI think But againI'm expecting nothingAnd not getting my hopes up
Gosh this past few days have been stressfulAt least now I can relax todayTake my meds And have a day offDuring the film I did wonder what he would make of me having the same issues as AmyHe strikes me as being really good, decent and cleanBut I'm also glad I didn't tell him any of my pastThat would have been way too heavyBut stillIt's a worry 
I am just glad that I actually went on the date And that I made it out aliveIt will be interesting to see if he texts or ringsIive in hope.....
Also Thank you do very much for your support through all of this You guys have been a tower of strengthAnd I know I couldn't have done it without youYou are all shining stars Love you all to bits and pieces