They Think It's All Over...... It is Now!

Greetings from a very tired but very happy RubyI officially finished up in work yesterday After almost four months of hard workWork was a joy last weekThere were only eleven guests staying with us So unlike other weeks I had the time to chat to them Get to know their names And their stories It was so nice to address each person by their first name And to have the craic with themLeaving work is bitter sweetI will miss work Especially the people Both my fellow workers and the guests I will miss the banter The structure The routine And of course the money I am just so grateful that my manager Georgina gave me a chance Because that's exactly what I needed For someone to take a chance on meI did the interview for this job back in February Luckily I had two great references And I was offered the job straight away From the start Georgina said that I would be good for the centre And the center would be good for me That I would flourish and blossomShe was so right Working has done wonders for my self esteem and confidence I am a new woman!I feel capable and able I feel confident in my abilities And ready to tackle any issue big or smallYes Work has given me a new lease of life 
So As one chapter of my life closes Another one begins I have a few options for autumn/winter On a Wednesday I am now doing a full day of horse riding Which is amazing And I look forward to it each and every weekI have also put my name down for a computer course in the local Womens centreThen yesterday I heard a stables quite near me is looking for staffAlso I saw Breda this morning And she told me about a new scheme Where you are matched with a job that you are interested in And they train you over a four year period So that is another way I could get in to horse riding work So I have options And I am really looking forward to getting out there in the big wide world Hopefully doing something that I loveAgain I am so blessed to have an amazing support structure around me Of family and friends And professionals I know that not everyone has that And I count my lucky stars every single day that I do 
In other news I don't know if I have already mentioned it But through horse riding I have met a new friend Over the last couple of months We have become quite close We travel together to horse riding every Wednesday And we talk on the phone most days He is a good bit older than me He is in his forties And also has a muscular condition that effects his lower limbs He is what they call a para-rider He really is a lovely guy And has become a very close friend He came out with us the evening of my birthday And gave me a lovely present of a photo of the two of us the day of my first dressage show But yes We have become firm friends fast But recently I have been getting different vibes off him Like he will tell me that I look pretty and things like that So I was speaking to him on the phone last night And all Of a sudden he asked me if I wanted to go on a date I guess the signs were there But I chose to ignore them I really like this guy But I don't have any feelings for him Not like that Although pArt of me wishes I did have feelings for himIt would make this situation a whole lot easier But unfortunately The course of true love does not run smoothly So I had to tell him in a very gentle way That I valued our friendship above anything else And I didn't want anything to jeopardise that And I really meant itI think sometimes a friendship is more special than a relationship He took it very wellAnd agreed with me I actually think that he felt he had to ask me out Because he did seem quite confused as to what was happening between us But in glad I set him straight At least now we know where we both stand But hey It was flattering to be asked And to be complimented tooTo be honest though I don't think I am anywhere near ready to have a relationship I am just getting to a point where I feel comfortable with myself I don't think I could handle having to deal with a whole other person I'm sure it will happen at some point Just not now 
So yes Exciting things are happening I turned 35 last weekHad a lovely birthday And was utterly spoiledTomorrow is my mams birthday And her turn to be spoiledMy Dad is staying with us indefinitely at the moment He just can't really be left on his own at the moment His MND is getting worse And he is also battling a very painful back condition So far it's going ok And he is behaving himself I guess we just take each day as it comes And deal with it that way 
So that's it from me for today Now that I am not working I hope to have more time to blogTo read yours And to comment My writing really differed this summer And I really felt disconnected from you allBut now is my chance to throw myself back in to it I guess it's a good sign though That I have been busy living my life And do didn't have the  time to dedicate to my blog I even considered stopping blogging altogether But now I see that that is just the wayLife goes sometimes On that note I will bid you good day From a cold and windy Ireland See you in the next post....