When anger is added to suicidality, i’s a bad thing. It’s a marker for actual attempts and especially completions.
I have had angry suicidal clients attempt suicide on me a few times in my work as a counselor. It’s unnerving to say the least. In fact, dealing with an actively suicidal client is very stressful. In the times when I did this, the suicidality of the client poured out and poured into me. It didn’t make me suicidal. Instead it just made me disturbed and upset. I was walking around for three weeks thinking of suicide, what it means, etc. The thought of it never much left my mind, so I was thinking about “the subject of suicide” most of the time.
It’s more creepy and unnerving than anything else. It didn’t make me depressed or suicidal. In fact, it was more the opposite, as when the issue is shoved in your face, you realize what a real deal big thing end of the road finality it really is. It shocks and repels you and makes you more opposed to it than you were before.
We don’t normally think about it, but when you have an important person in your actively attempting suicide, you are forced to deal with the subject that we always evade.
