The Day of Rest

This weekend I am taking the opportunity to relax and get prepared for the start of my working week next FridayI am in for more training Tuesday and Thursday Then my first live shift is the evening shift on FridayThat weekend is a bank holiday weekend here So I will be working Friday, Saturday, Sunday and MondayThese consecutive days will really give me a chance to throw myself in at the deep end And get stuck in Georgina keeps reiterating That this job is mainly about common sense I just hope I have enough I really hope I can do this And I haven't bitten off more than I can chew I feel like at the momentThere is a huge clock, counting down to my first shift D Day I am both terrified and excited to start work All I can do is my best And I will most definitely give it my allIf I can just hold my nerve And turn up for work everydayI really think it will do me the power of good With my confidence Self esteemEverything I can't stress enough How important this job is I really think it will make or break meBut maybe I shouldn't put too much pressure on myself Maybe I should take it day by dayShift by shift And go from there 
I went horse riding again yesterday I was on PrincessAnd was instructed by RoisinFor a change We went out to the outdoor arena As the weather was fineIt felt great to ride out in the fresh air I felt so freePrincess is starting to co-operate with me But I really need to work on my control of the horse We did a lot of trotting Jumped some small jumps And did a good bit of cantering towards the end of the session It was brilliant Every time I go I just want to do more and more I would do it every single day if I could It gives me a natural highA feeling that drugs used to give me Except this is better There are no negative effectsIt's good for me I am so grateful to have found something that I am passionate about That feeds my soulIt's also something to work at To progress and improve Something to work towards I can't explain to you how much I love it I'm actually surprised that I haven't found riding until now I guess dancing was my thing when I was younger And then I went off the rails after that So horse riding never really came up for me AnywayI've found it now And better late than never right?
That's really all to report for today folks Life is good I am good You can't ask for much more than that....