This is me Ruby I am struggling right nowTrying my best to get back on trackTrying not to let this dip turn in to a slipOr a relapse This is the face of a girl who is fighting Fighting for a better lifeFor her and her family This is the face of a girl who is insecureShe is afraid Lonely Sometimes it feels like she is on the edge That she is going to free fall in to her ED or addiction She is worried Worried that she is not strong enoughNot good enough Not pretty enough Not smart enough She worries all the time
This is the face of a girl who smiles Even though she is crying on the inside Sometimes she feels like she is going to fall apart Fall down And crumble She tries her best to keep it all together To do her best But sometimes she can't
This is the face of a girl who wants to be a good personTries her best to do the right thingShe doesn't always succeed But the important thing is to try This girl makes mistakes Every single day But she tries to learn from themAnd move on
This girl is afraid of relapsingShe knows that she is in a precarious situation at the moment She has lost weight She is feeling vulnerable Afraid She is equally thrilled and terrified at the prospect of slipping
This girl craves oblivionEvery day she has to fight the urge to check off the planet To escape To run To hide
This girl is doing her best To be a good personTo do the right thing To be a good daughterSister Auntie Friend Doggy mamaShe is trying her best And she hopes that is good enough
