Still Standin'

The past week has been unimaginably hard So much has happenedAnd yet most of my family know nothingSo I am trying to save face for themUsing really threw me for a loopAnd all I really learned is that I can't say noAnd that I am still a greedy addictThe Boy has also confused me Wondering whether I  Iike him or notFeeling strangely drawn to himAnticipating his texts and callsIt's all very high school and hormonalI now know that I can't see himAnd I've accepted thatFor nowJust knowing he wants to see me is enough
AnywayThis is just a quick post to let you know that I am still hereI'm hurtI've been stungA good friend had left me feeling bruised and batteredIt sucks because I really cared about this personEven though they think I don't The whole situation had me wondering whether I am a bad personOr a sick person Sometimes I feel like I leave a trail of destruction in my wakeAnd hurt everyone around meBut do I really have that power?I don't know