September Update

I can quite believe that the summer is over
I finish up work next weekBut my manager asked me if I was interested in doing cover for employees going on holiday I said I would as I think it's a good thing to get my foot in the door thereI think back to MayWhen I was just starting I honestly thought I wouldn't get through itI thought my anxiety and fear would get the better of meBut four months later Here I am finishing upAnd feeling so good that I stuck it out And got through it And do you know what?I thoroughly enjoyed itI made some new friends Got to meet the most amazing people And help them enjoy a much needed break awayThere have been some challenges over the last few months Difficult guests Demanding people  The morning the fuse blew in the kitchen But overall I am so glad that I did it It has given my  confidence and self esteem a much needed boostI met all kinds of people this year Old people Tiny kiddies Teenagers with autism Adults with brain injuries Lovely people I also made over €100 in tips this weekWhich is always niceWe had our staff night out a couple of weeks ago The girls went for dinner Which was just lovely And after met  up with the lads in the pubBecause of the horrendous hangover I had last year I decided just to have a couple of drinks this yearSo I had three and headed home like a sensible girlTwo days later I was in workAnd one of the chefs came in with a busted up nose and two blacks eyesHe had jumped in to stop a fight And got a right box on the noseThe other chef who started the fight ran off and left himI am so glad that I went home early and missed all the dramaTheses days all I want is a quiet life
In other newsI am still horse riding About twice a weekWhich I just love Riding is great for the headEspecially for a thinker and analyser like meI had a lesson yesterdayAnd was on a new horse called KatieKatie was much more forward and quicker than my usual WillowAnd because of this I was a bit nervousIt was a tough lessonBut really enjoyed itLookI know I'll never compete or anything like it But I just want to be the best I can beI want to be able to ride To canterTo feel an affinity with the animalI had become very comfortable with WillowSo it was good to change it upMy instructor did ask me during the lesson if I wanted to swap back to WillowBut the stubbornness in me didn't want toI love a challengeAnd by the end of the hour I was getting better
ED wise Things are going wellI eat food I keep said food downI rarely purgeI don't restrict or dietI don't weigh or measure my self worth in pounds and ounces I don't  want to be underweight I don't want to starve myself I don't binge I'm not afraid of food anymore I even enjoy it Don't get me wrong Everything is not perfect But they are hundred time better than they were Amen to that!!My body image has improved a lotI am shapely I have curves Boobs galoreAnd a butt you could eat your dinner offI wouldn't go so far as to say I love itBut it's growing on me Literally!!Life has improved so much over the last 18 monthsI am content I have moments of immense happiness I also have moments of utter despair But they balance each other outDon't get me wrong Life is not perfect But it's the best it's ever beenWhen I think about where I have come fromI'm not doing too bad at all
That was just a quick update Will write again soonTake care out there... x