Self-Hate – Not Even an Option
by Phil
Some people might wonder what type of research I do regarding HBD and Blacks. Well, I devote much of my studying towards old 19th century works on Blacks by European anthropologists, biologists, some missionaries, etc. The reason being that, aside from Global IQ, actually HBD work on Africans is minute, and the most variable studies regarding blacks are concentrated on US blacks.
What I’m really doing is comparing various case studies on different African groups, linking the replication of descriptions on similar groups through the passage of time and different authors, seeing how they hold up in modern times and thinking why certain traits aren’t apparent in modern days.
After a good deal of adjusting to the style in which they were described, the process becomes a nice hobby, though under the circumstances of why I do what I do, it’s an addiction. It doesn’t really bother me to see comments of inferiority regarding certain behavior or qualities, since I’ve already being exposed to the general facts regarding crime and overall achievement.
Though another reason, as I’ve mentioned before, is really the consistent credit these early writers present to be such judges. To the disbelief of others, their opinions varied a considerable amount regarding African tribes even within West Africa.
A good example would be one that I’ve been invested in for some months now,
Here.
On top of that, at least for Black standards, I consider myself tolerant towards criticism. However, whether it’s naive remarks or emotionally-driven ranting, I lose it over bashing.
When I see images of Black crime such as murder or rape, I am filled with worry. Not just for Blacks but more generally the fear that aware non-Blacks feel. When I see SAT score averages, SES averages, or any other statistic reflecting stability or function broken down by race, it fills me with anxiety. On a positive note though, I soon become anxious to find some path to a solution that’s applicable.
Sadly enough, in comes cases anxiousness is converted to rage when I stumble upon stuff like this:
As polite as I considered myself in my response, I honestly felt like saying something along the lines of those that Homer describes here being “on to something”.
It doesn’t help that of all the types of bashing, women-bashing is easily among the worst in my opinion. With that said, this could be a case where my feelings were misplaced, as I don’t believe actual malice was used with Homer’s words, but rather, he was just being blunt.
Outside of tribalism, there’s another reason I don’t like this form of commentary. In effect, it can have the ability to invoke self-hate. However, what I eventually learned after feeling close to self-hate many times at age 17 is I would be feeling sorry for myself for a long time if I started to feel this way all the time. Envisioning how wastefully pathetic a life like that would be, I couldn’t bear it a second after that realization. At that moment, I found that on an instinctual level I could reject self-hate.
With the above considered, I want it to be noted that this doesn’t translate to me being tribalistic towards Whites. On an outer level, I’m somewhat of an individualist, so if anything, I have overall appreciation for Whites. The only ones I dislike are SJWs or extremely tribal Whites that aren’t that different from other Internet ethnonuts. I respect them, give them credit where it’d due for their truth on racial matters and of course for promoting White pride especially in these times. However, under no circumstances, will this extend towards an automatic submission. That’s actually a topic for another day.
