P is for Peace!

I'm going to write about peace In the context of peace of mindAt meetings A lot of talk centres around achieving peace of mind As an addictAnd as someone who suffers with mental health issuesI have experienced very little peace of mind in my life Plus the fact that I am a worrier means my head is rarely quietFor as long as I can remember The has a constant chatterA running commentary going on in my headMost of which is negative and repetitive and generally pretty destructive Then add an ED in to the mixWhich is also like another voice in your headAnd it becomes very difficult to achieve peace of mind I am constantly thinking Constantly switching And am generally thinking about something that did happen Or something that is going to happen Very rarely am I in the present On the moment I am almost always in another tense 
I do strive for peace of mind thoughAnd I do get moments of it Those moments are sheer bliss When the internal chatter stopsAnd my head is quietYou can't buy that kind peace  To me Peace means not worrying about the past Letting the past be And not beating myself up about it It means not projecting in to the future Not wishing my life away Peace means being happy to live in the present To deal with things as they happen To live life on life's termsIt means accepting my situationThe good and the bad And making the most of it Peace means integrity Doing the next right thing Even when no one is watching It means living a life that I can be proud of Peace means being present Mindful Doing the best I can with what I have It means laying my head down at night Knowing I lived the best life I could have today I guess peace is similar to happinessIt's not a constant thing But we do get moments of it And those moments are priceless
What does peace mean to you?