This is part three of a selfless journey I am taking in 2013.. to understand where I am, please read the previous post... it may help you to understand, in depth.
So, it has definitely been a journey. I am finding that in being selfless, you can actually train your mind to not hold on to things too tightly as if they were yours. When you do, you manage to not struggle so much, and you can temper yourself and your life to practice more acceptance. I think that’s pretty cool. I actually like not holding on to things too tightly. This helps you to realize how to submit to the sovereignty in this world and realize that you are not in control of everything. That some things tend to fall right where they are supposed to be, and you can breathe easier and deeper, because you trust that sovereign rule and reign to guide you in your life. And.. it’s okay. And you can teach other people to accept the grace that rides on every single detail of our lives, as well when you practice this phenomena , by example.
It’s a grown up lesson, yes… it is.
I used to always want to be a “grown up” when I was a little girl. Especially when I was about 14 or so.. I used to say,” Gosh, I can’t WAIT til I grow up!” and sometimes I would say it out loud, and my mother would laugh and say : “It’s not all it’s cracked up to be…” And I would ponder this, as if there was some kind of secret I wasn’t privy to. Being a grown up teaches you how to be selfless. Especially if you have children. I am learning that we are ever providing for another soul… emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually , and even socially… and as we near our souls, we are giving our children something new to take away, to build upon and to trust , daily in their lives.
I love the idea of this, but it’s completely exhausting… it is.
BUT… you have to look on the bright side…
It matures you. It really does, to be selfless. I pity the person who never learns this lesson, and has children. Life may be very challenging; yet interesting, at the same time.I wonder why sometimes God desired life be this way.. so selfless, that is. Is it just maturity, that happens to be the goal? I hope not. My prayer is, it does something humongous for our own souls, as well. That despite the maturity of our character, it really helps to accomplish something BIG, pertaining to our destiny.
Having begun this journey to work on selflessness in such a way it was very intentional, I am believing that my destiny has been altered, if you will. That maybe my capacity to think deeper, to sleep deeper – with more peace, my ability to harbor enough wisdom to work through completely jarring enigmas I encounter in my lifetime and perhaps I will have a more awesome ‘pep in my step’ and have more joy, because I considered this selfless journey and what it wrought during rather challenging times in my life.
Oh, this well within… this well may give many thirst, once I accept the challenge as a call , and an offering – and not a chore.
I like this, thought… I do.
What about you?
Have you ever had to take this selfless journey, and found it to bring truths to your inner being you never considered before?
Would love for you to share…
Wow..wait til I get to the end of this year.., I am experiencing some deep truths . (I hope I choose an easier word next year to follow for the year in 2014 – this one almost broke me…)
