We were there last night
Mindfulness is paying attention in a particular way on purpose
It's about living in the now
Being in the present moment
I was very keen to go to this course as I spend most of my time ruminating about the past or projecting in to the future
I also find it very difficult to just be
I always have background noise
The tv or the radio or music
Even when I'm falling asleep I have to have my DVD player on
I don't like silence
Because when there is silence I think
And over think
And analyze things to death
My thoughts can be very negative and intrusive
So I try to drown them out
Last night was very interesting
We learned about thought diffusion
This is how to manage negative thoughts
The course tutor did a guided meditation with us
We had to imagine ourselves walking on a empty beach
Feet in the sand
Waves lapping
It's a peaceful place
Then we had to imagine something that was bothering us
We then had to write the word in the sand
And let the waves wash over it make it disappear
I found this really good
Very symbolic
For my word I wrote heroin in the sand
Because it has been bothering me a lot lately
I have been having a lot of drug dreams
Dreams where I actually use drugs
My ex boyfriend is always in the dream
It's horrible because I wake up thinking that I have used
It's such a relief to realize it was just a dream
My mother and I went for a walk on the beach this morning
We decided to practice the thought diffusion
The tide was coming in so we wrote our words at the shore
My word
Washed away
Mums words
Me and Mum
Having a dip on a warm day
Partners in crime
