Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to take this opportunity to wish all my readers a very happy Christmas and a prosperous new year!And to thank you for your continued support through out 2015It's been an eventful year to say the leastMany highs and lows And ups and downsBut that's life I guessIt's not a straight runI know this time can be tough for usIf we are struggling with our EDsOr other mental illnessAddictionBereavement LonelinessSickness I realize that I am more fortunate than mostI have a strong family around meWho are my back bone My rockMy port in a storm And thankfully we are all in good healthMost of the time It wasn't always like this though Up until about 5 years ago Christmas in my house was utter bedlamIt was an excuse to get rotten drunkOr out of it on some other substanceInevitably there would be a family fightAnd the whole thing would fall apart I can remember one Christmas When we all had to decamp to my sisters  apartment Because my father was on such a bender Thankfully Those days are in the distant past
We are having a quiet family Christmas this year With just my neighbor coming for dinnerWhich I am grateful for As I don't think I could handle a big get together I am just glad to be clean and soberAnd well enough to enjoy the holidays
As for my ED Well I probably don't need to tell youIt's difficult I don't know where I'm atSomewhere in between my illness and recovery I have made some positive changes I am now eating breakfast, lunch and dinner at the table with my family Albeit small mealsBut it's better than stuffing my face in front of the TV and then purging I am trying hard to find some balance in my life Allowing myself a bit of everything In moderationI find this really challenging As I am an all or nothing type of personAll the drugs Or none of the drugsAll the food Or none of itAlso Eating and not purging is also a big hurdle for meSometimes I succeed in not purgingSometimes I don't But I am trying God knows I am trying 
Anyway I really hope that you enjoy your Christmas Where ever you may be And how ever you celebrateI am feeling very grateful For my family My dogs You my blogger family I'm hoping that 2016 will bring new opportunities That I will get back on track with my recovery And things improve for me a little 
Take care over the holidaysKeep loved ones close And most of all enjoy yourself! X