Keep Going

Ok
As you have probably guessed by now
I have been a bit all over the place this
And that's ok
I was just being self indulgent and feeling sorry for myself I think
Everything is fine
I am fine
I'm just looking for trouble
Inventing problems
Because you see recovery is a different kettle of fish
I thrived on the drama of my addiction and my ED
Recovery is a lot smoother
No extreme high or lows
It's more settled
And for me, that can be boring
The devil makes work for idle hands and all that
I think the trick here is not to let this negative thinking get in on me
I may have slipped
But that doesn't mean I have to let it turn in to a relapse
I am ok
And it's ok to go swimming if I enjoy it
It's ok to count the lengths
It's ok to exercise
It's healthy
And it's good for me
It's ok to eat chocolate
And crisps
But it's important to eat a variety of foods
Enough with the dramatic posts
I need to get back to basics
If Mary were here
She would say 'Firsts things first'
And get my food in order
Above all else it's important to eat (And keep it down)
No one said that recovery would be easy
Or straight forward
Nothing worth having ever is
And I have everything I need
A roof over my head
Food in my fridge
A family to love
2 dogs to cuddle
I am ok
It's ok to have a blip
A bump in the road
The important thing is get back up and keep going
So that is what I will do