I Think About
Why I was fortunate enough to get adopted as an infant
What was it that made my parents want ME over the others
Why it took my brother so long to finally be adopted
I Think About
What my Mother was thinking before going to bed the night she passed away
How my Father felt at that very moment she passed away
And how my Father managed to find the courage to tell my brother and I, “Your Mother went to Heaven”
I Think About
Why my Father was dating within 6 months after my Mother passing away
Why my Father remarried and kicked my brother out of the house in order to home his new wife’s 3 children
Where my brother is today
I Think About
How things would have been different if my Mother never passed away
If my Father would have quit drinking or if it would eventually be the death of him
Where my brother would have ended up
I Think About
Why my Father’s 2nd wife didn’t listen to me when I told her “He’s an alcoholic”
Why my Father’s 2nd wife felt it was ok to go through my Mother’s things and not let me have them
Why my Father and his 2nd wife felt I was the “bad egg” when I was the best one out of the bunch
I Think About
Why my Father married a 3rd time despite her being so much younger than him
Why my Father married a 3rd time despite me telling him she was only marrying him for his money
What my Father was trying to tell me that night in the ER after his auto accident and before they took him off the respirator
I Think About
What was the purpose of my Father dying
Was it so I would wake up and leave the dysfunctional relationship I was in so I could eventually meet my now husband
Why this was God’s plan for me
