When your heart was broken for the first time, you were devastated. The second time you'll be left annoyed. You already went through your first heartbreak. You know the feeling, the pain that you thought would never end. You cried for sleepless nights and ate countless number of chocolate ice-cream tubs.
But one fine day you found someone and just when you thought that you would never be able to love again, you did. The cupid stuck you and even though you call yourself a commitment phobic person, you loved him dearly and you knew that he loves you too.
But now, your heart has been left broken for the second time and you're merely a more stronger and heartless version of yourself. You'll find yourself questioning whether you'll ever find true love in life but you'll soon shrug it off and not succumb to old ways. Your emotional immune system will protect you now since you have gone through all of this before.
You'll fear being the mess you were and will protect yourself from being that person again no matter what it takes.
Maybe you'll replay the conversation all over again in your head while trying to sleep. Maybe you'll contemplate the entire point of your relationship, it doesn't quite matter anymore.
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You'll retreat back into your shell, demanding solitude because now you find it hard to trust people and most importantly you're scared to get attached.
"This is the reason I feared commitment", you'll shout to an empty wall.
The second time it happens, It's going to hurt but in a different way. Unlike the childhood what-am-I-without-him-pain, the pain has grown up to be mature just like you in these years with experience. It will be a heartache, a constant heartache demanding to be felt but you'll still get up from your bed and get on with life very much unlike the first time. The heavy feeling in your chest will return when you hear his favorite song on the radio or pass through the restaurant where you both went on a date, that moonlit night.
Stay strong and this phase shall pass. You have survived this before, you'll survive it now. You'll watch yourself transform into someone that you never expected.
You got to remember that you'll reach on to the other side, just like the first time and perhaps fall in love once again.
Perhaps?
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