Home Sweet Home

I'm home Praise the Lord I am homeI was discharged yesterday at lunch timeMy doctor came in the early morningAnd told me that my bloods were almost back to normalAnd I would be discharged that dayIt was welcome newsHospital life is fine for a whileBut there's no place like home
All things were pointing to my being discharged I was allowed to eat a low fat dietI was taken off the dripI had no painAnd was generally feeling a lot betterAnd of course Hospitals don't tend to keep you one minute more than necessary So I packed up my little bagGot dressed for the first time in almost a week And made sure to have a little chat with all the ladies before I wentThey were especially nice on my wardLadies in for all kind of things from kidney stones to bladder problems We all bonded over cups of teaAnd really looked out for each other I wished them all luckThen went to the day room to wait to be formally discharged I was barely out of my bed before it was filled In fact there was a girl in the day room waiting for my bed They don't mess around in hospitals do they?My Dad arrived to pick me upAnd we continued to wait to speak with doctor and get my prescriptionEven though I was feeling betterI still wasn't back to myself And was incredibly tiredI had to fight sleep sitting with my dad 
Eventually the doctor cameAnd spoke to both of us He explained that they thought the pancreatitis was as a result of being on my meds for so longExacerbated by my EDAnd to stay well I needed to watch my diet Take it easy And maybe try and come off some of the meds We thanked the doctorAnd made our way home 
There was a flurry of activity when I arrived homeThe two workmen who did our kitchen were there And they gave me a racous welcome homeAnd of course Honey and Lea went beserk I've havent seen Honey move so fast since she was a puppy There were so many people in the house They didn't know who to go to first After sitting with them for a while I went and unpacked my bag And changed in to my pjsAnd retreated to the couch with a cozy blanket Where I promptly fell asleep for the evening 
The rents thought that when I woke up was a good time to tackle me about my lifestyle I make no secret of the fact that I lead a very unhealthy life styleMy food is nothing short of atrociousI purge I don't get enough vitamins and minerals More often than not I am dehydrated And basically I am like a grown up child I eat what I want When I want And don't take my health in to consideration one jotHeck, I only gave up smoking because of the inflated price of themNot because of my healthI guess when you don't like yourself very much You don't really care about the health of your body You don't care if you live or die It makes no difference to meBut I really need to start taking proper care of myselfNo more crispsNo more chocolate No more eating what I want And definitely no purging Which is going to be the toughest part I just know it I've also decided to stop weighing My scale is not that reliable But weighing yourself everydayAnd recording itCan not be healthy right?AnywayI don't need a scale to tell me I've lost weightI just need to look in the mirror to see that AnywayI'll just take it day by day 
I had no appointment with my doctor this morning But I rocked up and 9am anywayAnd he saw me pretty quickly which I was grateful for I got my prescriptionAnd headed to the chemist Where I am as I type this
This week has been a bit of an eye opener Change has to happen if I want to live And I do I really do As I always say Baby steps all the way