Happily Ever After?

SoNow that I am feeling a bit betterMentally and physicallyMy ED may be playing havocBut I am humanMy thoughts have once again turned to loveYou might recall the date I had last summerMy first and only date in yearsIt didn't end in happily ever afterBut thats okIt was good experienceAnd stillI continue to believe that there will be a happy ending for meLove wiseI'm a big believer in love and romanceNothing excites me moreThan reading or hearing about a great love story I don't believe there is one person out there for us allI believe there are many that could potentially be our perfect matchAnd even in my darkest hour I always believed I would fall in love at some stage 
I don't really think I've ever been properly in loveMy first boyfriend was puppy love My next relationship was drug fuelledLove had nothing to do with it Since then I've had a couple of short term relationships But noI don't think I've ever truly been in loveI don't know what that feels Like Or looks like But I do believe that I will know it when I see itAnd I believe it will happen for meSooner or laterThere is someone Someone I've had my eye onI've seen him a few times in the garage where I get my petrol and car repairedI know his first name As I heard someone calling him one day But for now I will call him The bearded oneAs he has a beardI'm starting to see that I like a beard in a guy As long as it's well kept and neatAnywayI don't know this guy Don't know anything about himI'm just going on basic human attractionAnd the feeling I get from himThe last time I bumped in to himI could sense him looking at me So I'm hoping he has checked me out too
Right This is my dilemma I get such a good feeling from this guy I like the 'gate' of him as my sister would say Meaning you like the look of himSo Should I be a modern woman Be proactive and ask the guys in the garage for his number?Take a leap of faith And make the first moveOr should I frequent the garage every day in the hopes I run in to him?Or do I leave my number in the garage for him?And let him do the workI don't know you guysI am so rusty and out of practice with things like this But a huge part of me thinks I should just go for itI mean What's the worst thing that could happen?He could say noAnd my ego would be bruisedBut at least I would know that I gave it a shot And won't be wondering what if, For the rest of my lifeBecause The truth is That I would love to meet someoneTo share a life with For company Some one to do things with Someone to love And who loves meI think it would be great for meAs it can he lonely being 34 and having no one to share things with I would love to have another bodyAnother pulse Another heart beat So I know I'm not alone And I don't have to face life by myself 
I guess because I don't drinkOr frequent pubs or clubsIt's a little harder to meet like minded people There is online dating And I haven't really given that a fair shot So that is something to consider But I would love to meet some one the old fashioned way Call me a hopeless romantic...
I guess also I was ill for so long That a relationship wasn't even on my radar It isn't even an option when you are too busy trying to kill your self And I didnt want to drag any body in to my world of shitBut now Even though my ED is in a precarious state I think I need to continue to live as normal  a life as possibleAnd who doesn't love a good love story?
So Friends Here's where I need your help You are my girls My besties And I value your opinion greatly What do you think I should do?Take control of the situationAnd ask about this guy in the garage?Wait until I run in to him again?Let nature take its course?Or leave well enough alone?Maybe you have another ideaSomething I haven't thought of Whatever you think I would love to knowHow I wish I could invite you all round to mineAnd we could chat over hot cups of tea and scones And put the world to right But really Let me know what you thinkI'd love to know....