Girls

I'm late posting todayAs I met a friend from treatment this morningI say she is a friend from treatment But she is more than thatShe is a friendNo matter where I met herI hadn't seen this particular girl in a whileSo was super excited to see her We had a great chat over teas and coffees I told her all about my date with The PlumberAnd we had such a laugh over itI now feel at a point where I can laugh about itAnd not feel badly at all about itShe was the first friend I've actually spoken to about itAnd it was great to get her feedback
It struck me after I met my friendHow important it is to stay connected to our girlfriends They say boys come and goBut girlfriends are for lifeI certainly value the few real life girlfriends that I have And of course all of youWho have been there for me every step of the way There's just something so lovely about meeting upChatting Gossiping LaughingToday I actually really laughedMost of the time when I laughIt's forcedBut today was proper belly laughingAnd it felt great
My friend is a very worldly ladyHas traveled a lotAlways looks immaculateI remember when I met her in treatment She was always so well put togetherAnd so thinBut she was always that wayNo matter what she ateWe clicked pretty much straight awayAnd both living near each otherHave kept in touch ever sinceI remember when I first started meeting herI was just out of treatment Still underweightStill very entrenched in my illnessJust driving the half hour to meet her was a huge challengeI remember arriving to meet herMy nerves shotI was a walking ball of anxietyI couldn't relax When I was with herI was worrying about the drive homeBut thankfully things have improved drastically since then My confidence with driving and meeting people has improvedI feel a bit more sure of myself I still have a long way to goBut I've made a start And that is the main thing
AlsoJust to update you on my wanting to lose weightI wrote that post directly after weighing myselfAnd I felt like a whaleHowever After calming down I realised what a stupid and silly idea it wasAnd I'm not going to try and lose any As  I always sayI'm going to go by how I feelRather than what the scale saysAnd I feel pretty okSo let's go with that