Friday 22 January

I finally got around to implementing my New Years resolution this weekAnd gave some money to my mom to save for meI could save it myself But then I run the risk of temptation when I feel the urge to spend I'm really not all that good with moneyAt least up until now I haven't beenI remember when I went to the meetingsI heard several speak about their shopping addictionI can relate to that The urge to spend The impulse to buy that skirt you just have to haveThe feeling that my life would be complete if I had that pair of jeansI'm trying save €30 a weekPlus money towards house keepingIt makes me feel good to contributeAnd it's only fair seeing as I share this house tooIt's a good life lessonIf I ever move out on my own I need to know how to budget my money And if it's a choice between buying food for the week or a pair of jeans I need to be able to make the right choice Because that's what responsible adults doRight?
In other newsWe have more visitors this weekMy Dad is coming for the weekend As are my brother and his partner We are all going out for dinner tonight To celebrate my brothers book deal It's so great to have good news for a change For so long My family pin-balled from one crisis to anotherThere was always something Always drama Confrontation Tears and fights For so long We were falling apartCrumbling We were horrid to each otherBut now Well now things couldn't be more different Addiction is a thing of the past We get on now We actually like each other now  We care about each other's well being now And that my friendsIs a friggin revelation 
I'm hoping to hear about the job soonThe closing date for applications was Wednesday The manager told me that they would go through them yesterday It might be early days to expect to hear from them todayBut certainly by Monday or Tuesday I hope to find out that I've been called for an interview They are not calling everyone for interview But I really hope to beBecause I'd love the chance to make a case for myself in personI want to show them that I am enthusiastic and motivated That I'm friendly Patient And wiling to learnI'm probably getting my hopes up way too high But I can't help it I can't help getting excited at the prospect of being part of the working world Living life Being independent Taking care of my own stuffAnd generally being a functioning member of societyI just want to be productive I wany to feel like I am worthwhile and valuable And have something to offer I feel like I could really do this jobAnd in factIt wouldn't even be like a jobAs I know I would enjoy the work Three evenings a weekFrom 4pm - 10pm is so manageable for me When I worked in the pizzeriaI was on the same hours  there And that suited me just fine 
So Here I am Hoping and praying I just want to know either wayAs ever I will keep you posted....