F is for Free

F is proving to be a tricky customerThe only other word I could think of was foodAnd I pretty much covered that yesterday So free it is I wanted to write about being freeAs for so long I was a slave to drugs, alcohol and my EDHaving been a heroin addict for years I was literally a slave to the drug My whole world cantered around the getting and using and finding ways and means to get more Because what ever I had Was never enough I was a greedy addict I couldn't control my cravings and urgesI hurt the people I love the most But most of allI hurt myself Then came alcohol and prescription meds I also abused these to the point where I passed out on the floor I was out of controlOut of my mind My ED was a similar storyAs you know I was a serial binger and purgerI literally used to do it all day Heck I even woke up in the middle of the night and binged It was a nightmare Thankfully Most of these things are behind meYes I am still on methadone and meds And yes I still have work to go on my ED recovery But I feel the most free that I've felt in the longest time 
Freedom is everything Without itWe have nothing Now I am free to studyWork Travel I'm free to wake up in the morning And not need a drug to feel normal I'm free to walk my dogs To go horse riding To attend my meetings To live my life the way I wantI'm free to travel the world As I don't have a criminalConvictionAnd am free to wear what I want To pierce my body To tattoo my bodyYo listen to the music I want Watch the films I want Even in this day and age There are places in the world where you can't do these things Where you don't have the freedom to be yourself I guess a lot of the time I take my freedom for granted I have the freedom of speech tooI can express myself the way I want toThrough wordsWritingArt I can express my feeling and thoughts on this blogThat is amazing YesFreedom is sweet And I am grateful to have it in my life today