Day 4

It's early morning here again in hospital About 6amAnd day 4 of no foodI was allowed two half cups of tea yesterday Which were absolute heavenI gulped them down like waterWhen the night staff came onI asked one of the nurses could I weigh myself in the morning She wasn't too sure that it was a good ideaBut I insisted that I wouldn't have a hissy fitSo the nurse just brought the scales aroundA dial one in kilos I stood on itAnd was shocked to see I had gained three kilos I asked the nurse how was that possible when I haven't eaten in 3 daysShe said it was the fluidThat they are pumping litres of fluid in to me every day And that it will settle down againBefore I had a complete meltdownI remembered that the last time I was in hospital with pancreatitis I gained weight too while I was thereThen when I got homeThe weight fell off meSo I won't panic just yet
I'm getting to know the ladies on my ward There is a lot of shuffling about Moving people in and out of bedsBut on the whole The people are lovely Some are sicker than others Some don't talk at allMy last neighbor talked continuously Like a mantra over and over againstShe was 92 A night woman In her day she had been a pharmacistShe went home yesterdayAnd two very handsome ambulance men came to take her home Boy was I jealous.
I also asked the nurse if she thought I'd be allowed eat todayShe said not a chanceI was crushed I was holding on for tea and toastIt was the only thing keeping me goingShe also said that I'll be here for a whileWhich is also not good newsChristmas is fast approaching And desperately want to be homeAll I can do is hope and pray that this thing clears up by then 
I just wish I could sleep more But it's just not happening Even with a sleeping tablet I'm awake at 5amWith not a hope of getting back to sleep I may ask if the dosage of the zimovaine can be increased As I am exhausted
I was speaking with my mother last nightShe told me that I need to start taking better care of myself I guess this is trueI don't eat properly I purge This is all taking a toll on my body I just feel so fragile right now Like it wouldn't take a lot to bring me down for good AnywayChristmas will be a chance to relax and rest And I'll do my best to stay healthy
I was wondering about youHow do you celebrate Christmas?Maybe you don't celebrate at allDo you have any traditions?What do you eat on Christmas Day?Inquiring minds want to know.....