Day 3

Just to give you an update on the 90 day challengeIt's turning out not to be as straight forward as I thought
Monday is doctor day as you knowI was up early And my mom the dogs and I headed in to the surgeryMum took the dogs for a walk while I went to see my doctorHe asks how I amI explain that I am doing betterAnd getting to more meetingsHe asks me to do a drug testWhich is no problem as I know I haven't used The only reason it will be positive is if there are still reminints of the drug in my systemI retire to the rest roomAnd do the delicate balancing act of peeing in to a little cupThankfully I go with little effortI clean upAnd flushAnd head back in to my doctorHe checks it after a minuteIt's negativeThat's goodThat's progress I thinkAt least now I know I am drug free
The next topic he brings up is that of my methadone reductionHe reminds me we were going to drop it todayI ask if we can wait one more weekHe agreesI am relieved 
I go and collect my medsAnd head down to the beach to meet my mumI take my meds in the carI am still on daily dispensingMy doctor told me he will change that next weekWe head homeAnd I sleep for a few hoursMum goes to work at about four She tells me I shouldn't go in to town tonight as the weather is due to be badI had planned to go to a meetingAnd I really wanted to go Against my better judgement I set off for the meeting at eightHowever about 10 minutes later I have to pull inAs it is beginning to sleetI ring my dad to ask him if the weather was due to get worseHe said it was And suggested I turn backI don't want toBut I know it would be foolish to continue onSo I swing my car around And head home
I feel mildly annoyed that I didn't get to my meetingAs I really wanted to do 90 in 90 daysBut as my mom saidI did my best to get thereMy intentions were goodAnd I can make up for it during the week
The next meeting is tomorrow lunch timeSo I am looking forward to thatI know that sometimes the universe conspires And life doesn't turn out the way we want or expectAnd that's okShit happensTomorrow is a new dayAnd all I can do is my best