Coco and Lea....BFFs

I visited Coco a couple of times this week
On Thursday with my Mam, the owner, Ruby the dog and LeaAnd today just me and LeaCoco and Lea are fast becoming besties Coco loves herAnd follows her around the field Today they were running and frolicking It was just adorableI brought a flask of tea And Coco thought this was fascinating!As I drank my tea Lea lay down beside meAnd Coco came over and started to groom her I just love how well they are getting onAfter Lea's spinal diagnosis We were worried for her future But she seems to have found a new lease of life with her new buddy CocoAfter a bit of investigating I have finally found out who owns the little white pony down the roadI have a phone number for himIt's a work number So I will try ringing on Monday My secret plan is to get the white pony over to CocoThen they will both have companyI mean it makes perfect senseWhether the owner thinks it is is another matter But you know A girl needs a goal to work towards I bought my first pair of 'country boots' this weekThey are brown and are really a glorified wellyBut they do the job out in the fields and in the yardSo yes The city girl in me is well and truly deadI am now a country girlAnd proud of it!
In other news I weighed myself this weekI don't know why But I was curious Seeing the number I was indifferent It meant nothing It wasn't good It wasn't bad It was what it was A number that holds no pleasure or pain for me anymore I think that is good I now appreciate my body a lot more It's strong It's capable It's able It allows me to go so much I'm no longer a physically weak girl Now I walkI runI ride horses I liftI carry I fill out my clothes And I love itBut it isn't that long ago that I was in a bad place I know how it feels to have no hope No belief No faithNo reason to go on never mind recover In my that place it is incredibly difficult to take that first step in to recovery It's terrifying And the disorder that was a comfort zone Has now become a hiding place Anything beyond it I'd too much And too scary But I have to tell you If you do manage to take that first step The rewards are instant and massive Bigger and better than you could ever believe Your physical health will improve You will feel better You will think clearer You will make more sense Life will make more sense You will begin to see that there is life beyond the disorder No matter how deep you are inIt's just a matter of having the courage to shut your eyes Clench your fistsLift one foot And take that first step You won't regret I promise you that 
I am now pretty sure that I did the right thing leaving my course I have no regrets And I am involved with horses more than ever now I am content I have moments of happiness I am ok Finally I am ok