Busy Bee!

It's 2pm on a SaturdayI have just finished the morning shift at workI worked yesterday's evening shiftAnd tomorrow I'm on all dayIt's busy at work at the moment We have 53 guests staying Most of whom are children under 12So the place needs a thorough and rigorous clean after each meal time The group that are staying with us this week are what we call travellers You may know them as gypsies Travellers in this country generally live in caravans On the road from place to place To be honest They have a bad name in this country But like any group of people It's a few bad eggs that ruin it for everyone So I was a bit worried how this week would go As you often hear of fights breaking out at traveler events like weddings and funeralsBut I have to say The people are just lovely A pleasure to have staying with us The parents are greatThe children are polite And they do their bit to help us stack the dirty dishes And throw left overs away Coming here is these peoples one and only holiday a year So I really try to make their experience a good one I try to be friendly and chatty TAlk to the kids And generally make them feel very welcome One family brought a dog with them But they aren't allowed bring it to their room So the dog is staying in the car However I did see the man sneaking in something under his jacket this morning Ha!I turned a blind eye I would like to have the poor dog cooped up in the car for days
In general I think work is going wellIt's busy It's hard work But I feel like I am thriving I can feel my confidence growing every day Even just talking to people So many different people every day Helps my self esteem And how sure I am of myself I can remember just a month ago Before I startedI was so nervous Afraid I wouldn't be able to do the job And that it wouldn't work out Now Here I am Four weeks later And I know what I am doing I feel confident and sure about my work And meeting new people Who are now friends is amazing Myself and Sinead are in constant contact I really think we are going to be good friends Even though she is almost half my age We get on like a house on fireAnd the rest of the staff are just lovely So willing to help And to explain anything that needs sorting My Mam keeps telling me that I am lucky to have found this jobShe is not wrong It's perfect for easing me back in to work I'm so busy that the time flies by I eat my breakfast and lunch in work Which is a revelation in itself I'm loving being more independent Being my own person And also being more financially flush I can contribute more to the house and bills I can treat the dogs And myselfYesIt has all worked out remarkably well
I feel like I am somewhat abandoning my blog lately I just don't have time most days to blog And often don't have anything to blog about other than work I guess I am blogging 2-3 times a week now As opposed to the 7 days a week I used to write I'm also aware that my blog is becoming less and less about my ED and addictionAnd more about life matter themThat is great And I'm loving where I am now in my life But I feel I might be losing readers But also I feel like I am pulling away from blogs that may trigger me And now I guess I don't have as much in common anymore with certain blogsI can clearly remember writing here once That it was a sad fact that my virtual life was more active than my real life Well that has most definitely changed Now I am out and about in the big bad world Meeting people Trying new things Working Living And loving it!As I always say It's baby steps As baby steps soon add up to be geat strides 
So yes I am in a good place How wonderful it is to be able to say that Things just seem to be falling in to place for me At long last I turn 35 this year And I feel like I am just starting to figure life out Heck, I am still pretty clueless But it's fun trying things out And finding out what works I know that a lot of you are struggling out there I am aware that some people are hanging on by their finger tips I just want you to know That recovery is possible That there is life after ED and addiction mThe odds were stacked against me I was a heroin addict With a chronic eating disorder It took me a while But I've made it out the other side And am now living my life without these illness taking over I can't lie It's not easy I still struggle Still purge from time to time Undereat from time to time But the point is That I don't let these things pull me down It's about progress Not perfection Perfection is a myth And we need to give ourselves a break And feel good about all the positive changes we have made So please Whatever you do Don't give up 
Right I'm off for a cuppa See you on the next post...