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I'm just back from the local lunch time AA meetingI'm actually really blessed where I liveBecause it's a great base to get to a lot of different meetingsI love the lunch time onesAs waiting for the evening ones can make for a very long dayAnd the day time ones are a great way to kick off the dayI have to be honest thoughMore often than notI am looking for excuses not to goAnd don't really look forward to them But When I do goI am reminded why I need meetings I never regret going to a meeting And always feel really good afterwardsMy first meeting ever Was in a detox ward when I was 19I can still remember the warm and fuzzy feeling I had after the meeting That was 15 years agoAnd since then I've been in and out of meetings more often than I care to remember I seem to stick to the following pattern I go to meetings I'm really enthusiastic and motivated I go to many in a weekAnd feel really good Then I start to pull awayTo isolate And soon I have talked myself out of going to meetings at all So I go through months or years of not going Then I find my way back And the whole cycle starts again 
They say if you don't get AAEventually it will get you I also go to NASo really I gave my pick of meetings The last time I was going to meetings I depended on one personIf they were going to a meeting I would goAnd if they weren't going I wouldn't either I've learned it's not healthy to depend solely on one personIt's better to have many people Friends A mixture of people And before I went to meetings for the wrong reasons I went to please others To get them off my backNow I go because I want to goBecause I want to be clean and sober Because I want to be a better person mAnd I want to stop hurting myself And others There is something very special about meetings Maybe it's the way people come together with a common goal Maybe it's the miracle that so many people have managed to stay clean and sober Maybe it's the energy of people wanting to recover Whatever it is It works And I need to stop fighting itStop digging my heels in And go with the process Easier said than done 
So yes I went to the lunch time meeting todayI didn't want to goBut my Mum offered to drive So I went The meeting is small but lovely I spoke last After the meeting A man came up to me And told me that I was doing great He told me to keep coming back And more will be revealed It was very nice of himAnd he told me that before I know itI will be helping othersI left the meeting on a highHigh on life High on recovery Better than any drink or drug
What I took from todayIs that we need each other It's so important to connect with other people Especially those who are in the same position as we areIt's also important to have face to face connect Supporting each other through blogging is fantastic There is no doubt about that But we really need human contact tooWe need to have a hug Have a chat over a cuppa And just be there for one another The world can be put to right over a cup of hot tea and a slice of cake Now The next time I don't want to go to a meeting I need to remember how good I am feeling right now And keep the momentum going I am feeling so grateful today Grateful to have AA in my life And to have friends within itI'm grateful to be clean and soberThat my family are wellAnd in a good place I feel blessed to have this blogAnd all of you my wonderful fellow bloggersLife is good Life is sweet Let's live it to the best of our ability