This post will be going live just as I am about to start welcoming the New Year in, and I guess I just wanted to write a post before it arrives, summing up the last twelve months and the journey that it has involved for me.
I started this blog back in May, having wanted to do so for a very long time. I wanted a place where I could ramble on about my latest lusts and purchases - somewhere that my love of all things fashion & beauty (plus my little escapades in between) could be written down and kept as something to look back on over the years.
Now this is where it all gets a bit "emo", so feel free to stop reading if you were only on here for the fashion/beauty side of things!
Prior to starting Ample Curvature, I'd been through a pretty nasty break up. I won't go into the details of things because that wouldn't be fair on any of the people involved. What I will say though, is that I've never been the most confident person and after all this happened my confidence really was at an all time low.
Appearance is one thing - I think it's safe to say that we all have our hang ups when it comes to this. Personally mine have always been my weight and the fact that my front teeth aren't entirely straight - both fixable, both probably not a big deal to anyone but myself - but for me, giant hangs ups. Anyway, I have no one else to blame for these issues but myself.
However, over the two and a half years that I spent in this particular relationship, I had managed to lose confidence in more than just the way I looked. I'd lost faith in my ability to achieve things, I'd lost the ability to have dreams and aspirations - all through being told repeatedly that I didn't have it in me to get what I wanted. Previous to this, I had always had it drummed into me by my amazing parents, that if I wanted to do something, I could - so being told these things came as quite a shock to me, so much so that I actually started to believe them.
It might sound silly, but writing this blog has helped me through some very difficult times this year - it has helped to build my confidence back up again through the lovely friends I have made and comments I have received. It has proven to be quite the escape when I've had other worries to contend with, and recently it has even proven to be quite the asset in helping me to bag myself an exciting new job! :)
Turns out I'm pretty capable after all. Certainly a lot more capable than the person who made me doubt myself will ever be.
In 2012 I have learnt a lot - most importantly, who my real friends are and who it is I can rely on. I feel like I've become "me" again in doing this and now the future looks brighter than ever. I have an incredible bunch of friends, the best family a girl could wish for, my career is bang on track (even the old love life is looking up!) and for the first time in a long time I feel entirely happy with the direction everything is moving in.
This doesn't mean I'm happy to sit back now though - there a number of things I would like to achieve this year, all of which I've jotted down in my little notebook! I thought it might be nice to share a few of my 'blogging resolutions' on here with you all though - that way if any of you feel like you would like to add to the list or would like to share your own blogging aims with me, please feel free to do so! I would love to read them :) Without further a do though, here are my own little aspirations for Ample Curvature in 2013...
Last but by no means least, I hope you all have a wonderful time celebrating this NYE and Happy New Year to all my lovely followers! :)Remember when you're making your resolutions this year - there's nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it, and never let anyone tell you otherwise.
♥ Lots of love ♥
