Wendy and the Horrible Week.

Well, of course my week started off with a dead hot water heater and I called in to work. I'm still sick and worst of all I went over points knowingly. It wasn't a huge amount of points, but still. Had a few other unfortunate things happen I'm not going to mention. It's all about the points.
Thursday night we went to a little sushi place we just discovered a few weeks ago. For the record, if you don't know me, Hubby and I love sushi. It's our favorite thing to eat.. Anyway, we ordered a roll which we had never tried before. It ended up being more like a sandwich. It was like at least one cup of sushi rice per piece, there were four pieces. One cup of sushi rice in enough points for a meal. I ate two of them. The average sushi roll piece has about 1/4 cup of rice, in my estimation. The sushi rolls are usually pretty small too. They can be anywhere between the circumference of a quarter to a tennis ball (roughly). Those really big ones are very hard to eat. This was more like a turkey club with the crusts cut off. Two turkey club sandwiches with the crusts cut off.
I was eating that "roll" when I realized I was over points. I mentioned to Hubby early on that "I'm might go over points tonight, just so you know". I'm not sure what possessed me to say that or even do it. Yes, I have extra points. I had used about half of them at a Thai restaurant we'd never tried before on Tuesday. I also had a dove chocolate bar at work, out of the vending machine, the day we went to the sushi place.  I usually do not get food out of the vending machine at work.
About a month or so ago we were talking about "danger zones"  at a WW meeting and how to avoid them. I said "I don't bring any money to work for the vending machine", or something like that. Well, I've had a bunch of ones in my pocket for about week now. Note to self: stop bringing money to work. I also need to stop eating the chocolate on one of my neighbor's desk. I used to be able to avoid her desk, but they moved my desk and now I'm right next to her.
I used excuses when I got chocolate. This past week it was the fact I was sick and I was having trouble focusing so I figured I'd have a little caffeine. The only caffeine I allow myself is chocolate and it's been that way since 1993. I have two medical reasons why I don't allow myself caffeine other than chocolate.
This is not about depriving myself, it's about getting control over my points and managing them better. I need to get back in control. People may think I'm beating myself up over this. I don't really beat myself up over anything. I just think the slightest diversion from the path I'm on is REALLY BAD. This is a big deal! I am not willing to settle for only 100 pounds lost.
The road is starting to get even more rough. I need to regroup. I'm hoping the scale doesn't show my discretions. It probably will. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I'll have to talk to my leader. I know for one thing I haven't been in my right mind since I started to get sick last week. I can't wait to get rid of this crap.
Thanks for reading.