This isn't a post I thought I would ever write, but I know it's one that needs to be written. I'm sure there are other people that are going through what I am or who have. How do you do it? Survive a broken off engagement? All of a sudden the person you pictured your life with isn't there. The person you shared your secrets with, your intimate moments, and your dreams and desires no longer shares those same wishes. This is hard. Some of us could say that we saw it coming while others say it came on like a small storm which grew into a tidal wave of fighting, arguments, and overwhelming emotions.
This post isn't one to bash my ex fiancé but to empower the other women that are going through this.
Growing up I dreamed about my wedding and the excitement that surrounded it. I pictured the look on the groom's face as I walked down the isle, the times with my bridesmaids, and even what my dress would look like. Then Pinterest came along and of my course my wedding board was my favorite one. I would pin all of the different dresses and themes and everything else that you could imagine.But for me, it was never just about the wedding, though it's a big part. To me, I wanted to find someone that I could be truly happy with. When things ended on Friday this past week, it was heart wrenching. I thought that I would spend my life with him and be able to build on that ideal from our wedding day. But that wasn't what seemed to be in the cards. It's hard but you will get through with it with the help of friends, family, classmates, and whomever else is in your life. Trials like these come with a lot of pain but they also bring a lot of healing because of the immense amounts of love that are shown. When you truly need others there to pick you up you will be provided for; know that it's God showing you that you are unbelievably loved and cared for.Sometimes seasons of are life are just that, a season, and though we don't know it yet; there is something much greater around the corner.
If I griped and complained about the relationship on here, that wouldn't make me look like a good person. All I can say is that there is someone else out there that will love me unconditionally, no matter what I look like, what my dreams and desires are, and put me above all else.
Only God knows when that will happen, but I know that his plan is so much better than any one that I can even begin to dream up.
If you're going through this too, don't distance yourself from those that care most because they're the ones that are going to tell you how beautiful you are despite the puffy eyes and bring you a big bottle of wine and not ask any questions.
This is your time to reinvent yourself, get a new job, or be the person you were never able to be. Just keep in mind, there is someone out there that will never make you feel used or misled in whatever you do.
Remember that you are strong, you are important, and you are completely worth it! Keep your head up princesses, I know I'm trying to.xo
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